seawaves
New Member
I am feeling disgusted with myself this morning, last night as some of you may have seen on Facebook, i had a dumping session the worse i've had heart racing, sweating & little control over my shaking hands, well this was due to eating my daughters sweets, but do you know what makes this so bad.........i didn't even know i was eating them i was so engrossed in x factor that i was eating her sweets & not even tasting them if that makes sense it was only when she came in & said mum should you be eating those that i realised what i was doing the first thought that went through my head was oh they went down ok :break_diet: so i am so glad that a while later the effects of them kicked in as if they hadn't would i have had more today, the answer is probably yes :cry:, i can not believe over the last 7 weeks i have been to hell & back & i would still go back to old habits, so this morning Sophie has gone to play football (i couldn't even look at her this morning i was so ashamed of myself) i am now going to the gym to try & sort myself out, sorry for long waffle but there is a time & place for honesty & this is the place xxxx