Roch
Shrinking away nicely :)
Well as some off you might know i have a set date for surgery for March 2nd but originally was meant to have surgery in Jan, then it was postponed to Feb and now March.
So i was told i would be at the top of the list for a cancellation and there was a good chance i would get a cancellation, but my hospital are very strict bout the pre op and u have to be on it for 4 weeks.
So i was meant to be doing the pre op for 8 weeks, as 8 weeks being the longest u can do a pre op and if a cancellation comes up after 4 weeks then i could have it.
I have struggled with the pre op as i very rarely eat meat or fish and have just been having the 3 portions of carbs, fruit and dairy.
The dietician is away but will be back in 2 weeks and we are going to sit down and revise the diet to suit me.
As a single parent their are of course lots of things i have to sort out prior to my surgery to make sure that if god forbid i dont make it then my son will be ok, and am in the process of having my work done in my home.
I cant tell you how many times a day i think about a cancellation, so much that its stressing me out. I am very depressed at the mo as my pain is very bad and due to my Apnoea i cant take anything else to help with my sciatica and osteoarthritis and am sick and tired of being housebound.
I thought i was mentally in the right place if they rang me up say in 2 weeks time and said can u come in tomorrow but after thinking about it carefully ad getting very tearful i realised that i dont want to have a cancellation , and my op is only 7 weeks away and i will come off the cancellation list and just take my set date.
I have re written my list and there is still quite a lot i have to do and organise in the next 7 weeks to make sure i am fully prepared for my op.
It is just me and Aaron who is 17 and he will be take a week off college to help me after my op but has to go back to college after that so i have to make sure i am very organised and 100% ready physically and emotionally.
I feel good about my decision and in a way i feel that a weight has been lifted of my shoulders and now i can stop thinking about cancellations and carry on sorting out all the things i have to do prior surgery.
I know 7 weeks will come really quick and i look forward to that day.
So i was told i would be at the top of the list for a cancellation and there was a good chance i would get a cancellation, but my hospital are very strict bout the pre op and u have to be on it for 4 weeks.
So i was meant to be doing the pre op for 8 weeks, as 8 weeks being the longest u can do a pre op and if a cancellation comes up after 4 weeks then i could have it.
I have struggled with the pre op as i very rarely eat meat or fish and have just been having the 3 portions of carbs, fruit and dairy.
The dietician is away but will be back in 2 weeks and we are going to sit down and revise the diet to suit me.
As a single parent their are of course lots of things i have to sort out prior to my surgery to make sure that if god forbid i dont make it then my son will be ok, and am in the process of having my work done in my home.
I cant tell you how many times a day i think about a cancellation, so much that its stressing me out. I am very depressed at the mo as my pain is very bad and due to my Apnoea i cant take anything else to help with my sciatica and osteoarthritis and am sick and tired of being housebound.
I thought i was mentally in the right place if they rang me up say in 2 weeks time and said can u come in tomorrow but after thinking about it carefully ad getting very tearful i realised that i dont want to have a cancellation , and my op is only 7 weeks away and i will come off the cancellation list and just take my set date.
I have re written my list and there is still quite a lot i have to do and organise in the next 7 weeks to make sure i am fully prepared for my op.
It is just me and Aaron who is 17 and he will be take a week off college to help me after my op but has to go back to college after that so i have to make sure i am very organised and 100% ready physically and emotionally.
I feel good about my decision and in a way i feel that a weight has been lifted of my shoulders and now i can stop thinking about cancellations and carry on sorting out all the things i have to do prior surgery.
I know 7 weeks will come really quick and i look forward to that day.
