everpositive
New Member
Hi fellas,
I'm not sure whether to feel happy or scared at whats happened this evening?? SO thought I'd seek solace and advice from you wonderful lot.
So heres the thing. I had my 'healthy options' lunch very early today because I had a business appointment at 12.30. Come 4pm I was hungry. I drove past a chippy which prior to my bypass took a lot of money from me over the years. I havent been near it since xmas. I have tried a few chips in recent weeks and they havent agreed with me at all, usually ending up in bad pain and puking. Anyway, the old temptation devil was shouting loudly in my ear to give it another go, reminding how delightful the chips and curry are in this place. So yeah, you guessed it I went in, purchased my small portion of chips and curry. Went home, unwrapped them, sat down and ate them. I ate very, very slowly and chewed them as long as a damn cow chews grass, left lots of decent pauses in between bites and surprisingly managed to have just under half.
At first I felt really happy, no delighted that I'd managed a 'treat' type food and that it hadnt come back up again. Whilst I'm thrilled with my 4.5 stone weight loss in under 3 months, I do feel that eating for me now, is more about what I can cope with, rather than what I like. After the joy faded, I now feel a bit scared because this is the first glimpse of me engaging in something that was part of my old, unhealthy, out of control life. I know that occasional treats are allowed and everything in moderation blah blah but now that I've managed it, I know its a do'able thing.
Theres time yet for me to dump so I may feel differently before the end of the evening?!?
I'm not sure whether to feel happy or scared at whats happened this evening?? SO thought I'd seek solace and advice from you wonderful lot.
So heres the thing. I had my 'healthy options' lunch very early today because I had a business appointment at 12.30. Come 4pm I was hungry. I drove past a chippy which prior to my bypass took a lot of money from me over the years. I havent been near it since xmas. I have tried a few chips in recent weeks and they havent agreed with me at all, usually ending up in bad pain and puking. Anyway, the old temptation devil was shouting loudly in my ear to give it another go, reminding how delightful the chips and curry are in this place. So yeah, you guessed it I went in, purchased my small portion of chips and curry. Went home, unwrapped them, sat down and ate them. I ate very, very slowly and chewed them as long as a damn cow chews grass, left lots of decent pauses in between bites and surprisingly managed to have just under half.
At first I felt really happy, no delighted that I'd managed a 'treat' type food and that it hadnt come back up again. Whilst I'm thrilled with my 4.5 stone weight loss in under 3 months, I do feel that eating for me now, is more about what I can cope with, rather than what I like. After the joy faded, I now feel a bit scared because this is the first glimpse of me engaging in something that was part of my old, unhealthy, out of control life. I know that occasional treats are allowed and everything in moderation blah blah but now that I've managed it, I know its a do'able thing.
Theres time yet for me to dump so I may feel differently before the end of the evening?!?