I hardly slept at all last night as I was so looking forward to starting the liver shrinking diet. (i'm doing slimfast).
I have just had my first shake and I am filled with a mixture of emotions but mainly I cried tears of happiness that I am finally taking control of the misery I have been through as a very obese person and that this phase of my life is now coming to an end. I still wish that I was able to somehow resolve this on my own without the need for surgery but I know that whatever success I have in the short term, I always put the weight back on which leads to me giving myself another good kicking and then perpetuating the whole cycle of hate, misery, food, on and on and on.
I had a couple of really good last ever meals such as a huge mixed grill over the weekend but to be honest, whilst the food was very nice, was not as emotionally satisfying and i ended up asking myself why I had bothered which really is an indicator that I am ready for this.
Let's just hope I can get through these two weeks and make it to my op with a itsy bitsy teenie weenie shrunken liver lol
I have just had my first shake and I am filled with a mixture of emotions but mainly I cried tears of happiness that I am finally taking control of the misery I have been through as a very obese person and that this phase of my life is now coming to an end. I still wish that I was able to somehow resolve this on my own without the need for surgery but I know that whatever success I have in the short term, I always put the weight back on which leads to me giving myself another good kicking and then perpetuating the whole cycle of hate, misery, food, on and on and on.
I had a couple of really good last ever meals such as a huge mixed grill over the weekend but to be honest, whilst the food was very nice, was not as emotionally satisfying and i ended up asking myself why I had bothered which really is an indicator that I am ready for this.
Let's just hope I can get through these two weeks and make it to my op with a itsy bitsy teenie weenie shrunken liver lol