cheryl
New Member
well this is it .
nervous,excited and ready.
i fly out today,with my mum and stay in the ladybird lodge tonight.
have to be at hospital by 7, although they havent rang me yet.thats not very good.
i want this weight of forever.since i was 18 i have controlled my weight, partially,by vomiting how bad is that!
i need this band to be my control.
i stopped vomitting and put on3st7 in 2 years.and want it to stop before i have even more to loose.i know i havent got self control and have choose the band for that reason.
i have even stopped going to local shops in case any one sees me and thinks 'that i have really let myself go'.
my self esteme is really low since my husband left.
i do have someone else so i am not doing this for a man,in fact paul doesnt want me too have it done.no one does,(mum,dad,brother) they all think i am mad.maybe i am, a little, i must be!
everyone else in my life is unaware of what i am doing,they all think i am on a detox diet! hopefully i can continue to pull it of.its no one business only mine.
i am on day 7 of the milk diet.i had a mug of milk breakfast and dinner and a yougurt for lunch, with water inbetween.
i could of choose the 1000 calorie a day but choose this for 3 reasons
1.. so i dont have to think about what i can and cant have
2.. to have my liver in best shape and make sugery as easy as possible
3.. so that the post op liquid phase will seem like a treat (i long for soup)
i have lost alot already, long may that continue.
must go and get my kids uniforms ready for tomorrow. and finish packing for my flight later. i will be taking my little laptop so will try and continue thoughout the whole process.
nervous,excited and ready.
i fly out today,with my mum and stay in the ladybird lodge tonight.
have to be at hospital by 7, although they havent rang me yet.thats not very good.
i want this weight of forever.since i was 18 i have controlled my weight, partially,by vomiting how bad is that!
i need this band to be my control.
i stopped vomitting and put on3st7 in 2 years.and want it to stop before i have even more to loose.i know i havent got self control and have choose the band for that reason.
i have even stopped going to local shops in case any one sees me and thinks 'that i have really let myself go'.
my self esteme is really low since my husband left.
i do have someone else so i am not doing this for a man,in fact paul doesnt want me too have it done.no one does,(mum,dad,brother) they all think i am mad.maybe i am, a little, i must be!
everyone else in my life is unaware of what i am doing,they all think i am on a detox diet! hopefully i can continue to pull it of.its no one business only mine.
i am on day 7 of the milk diet.i had a mug of milk breakfast and dinner and a yougurt for lunch, with water inbetween.
i could of choose the 1000 calorie a day but choose this for 3 reasons
1.. so i dont have to think about what i can and cant have
2.. to have my liver in best shape and make sugery as easy as possible
3.. so that the post op liquid phase will seem like a treat (i long for soup)
i have lost alot already, long may that continue.
must go and get my kids uniforms ready for tomorrow. and finish packing for my flight later. i will be taking my little laptop so will try and continue thoughout the whole process.