Feelin' down.

[quetiapina]

:cry: Today I feel low and am finding it harder to work out which is head hunger and which is real hunger.

I had nightmares last night - the feelings from those dreams spilled over into today making me feel sort of cloudy all day. I went to the Weight Management clinic and lost 3lbs which was good, but I felt nothing which is unusual as I usually feel chuffed.

On the way back I stopped at Morrisons and saw a girl who was in my year group when I was a head of Year in a local comp. (She is about 23/24 now). She told me that a lad who had been in her class had comitted suicide last week.

I feel so awful for him, his family and his friends. It's so so sad.

As well as feeling sad, I can't settle to anything and this for me is a danger point with food.

Sorry, just had to get that off my chest.

Love to everyone,

Jen:wave_cry:

 

[gaelic girl]

Hi Jenni
It's always hard to hear news like that especially a suicide, i know it always makes me ask so many questions. Nightmares can be extremely frightening and its not unusual for them still to have an effect the next day. You have done really well losing 3 pounds and today has been difficult for you but i really hope tomorrow brings a better day for you. Sending you a big Scottish hug to let you know that i'm thinking of you xx

 

[quetiapina]

Thanks Allie for your kind words x

 

[tashaliza]

hi jenni, was really sorry to hear that you're feeling down...... hope you are feeling better soon.
i'm sure that everyone has days when they feel like you do and i suppose that just because you have had surgery doesn't mean that you wont feel down, surgery won't make everything seem rosy. just remember that we are all hear if you want to vent and if you want to talk just pm me. love tasha xxx

 

[julieann]

Sorry to hear that you are having a bad day and i like you really struggle with the head hunger and i am finding it harder and harder as each week goes by. I seem to be one of those people that goes from one addiction to another eg before my weight problem i was a really heavy smoker, i gave that up and put the weight on and became addicted to chewing gum, i then lost majority of the weight, but still had the addiction of the chewing gum. I then decided on weightloss surgery and realised that the chewing gum had to go, which up until now i have coped with, but for the last couple of weeks my god have i struggled, and i dont know if its because of my addictive nature and the fact that i have nothing to replace the addictions that i have given up or if it is all in my mind!!!!!

 

[j.u.s.t.l.i.z.]

hi jen im so sorry to hear that your feeling down and its not nice to hear about someone elses loss of a life on top of how you are feeling yourself, please try to stay strong and all your minis friends are here to support you through not just the good times but through the bad as well.

well done on the 3llbs loss your doing really well hun x

liz x

 

[BypassBee]

hey jenni - its rubbish your having a crappy day. and im sorry about everything happening at the moment.
please remember that your strong enough to deal with this, you have come so so so far already, and are doing amazingly.
Im here anytime you need a chat, anytime at all.

.x.

 

[quetiapina]

Thankyou so much girls, you are so supportive with kind and reassuring words. Feel a bit tearful. It really is so good to have you all here. xx

 

[fat-girl-slim08]

Hi Jenny, Just wanted to say How really sorry I am to hear of the sad news about your friend, That must be really awfull for you.

Head Hunger is a horrible thing that we have to live with, and I get it too, it drives me mad and I still go looking in the cupboards and fridge to see what I can have, I think it must take time for us to realise what the difference is between Real hunger and Head Hunger,
Anyways I really do hope you start to feel better soon and if you need to talk please don't hesitate to pm me.x
Oh and well done on the 3lb loss thats great hun x

 

[Mazza]

Hi Jenni

Sorry your feeling down honey. Cant imagine how you must be feeling at the mo about your friend.

Love and best wishes Maz x

 

[Snow Angel]

Hi Jenni

so sorry to hear of this sad loss, its such shock for you, your bound to feel down. Try not to think about it too much and keep your chin up girl, we are all here for you so try and take some comfort from that............
sending you hugs xxxx

 

[baby jayne]

Hi Jenni

What an awful day you have had, I do hope tomorrow is better for you and you don't have anymore bad dreams hun.
Thinking of you xx

 

[Red 42]

Hi Jenni

hope you feel a little better today...well done on your 3lb off

Yvonne xx

 

[fairyringuk]

Jenni so sorry about your sad news and at a time when you werent really able to cope with it feeling already down
Head hunger is an awful thing and must be hard to deal with when you are feeling as you are, however you have come a long way, and you have done amazingly well and I know you can keep going.
Have a good cry for you and your friend and then be hard with yourself and get up and get going again cause you CAN beat this, you wouldnt have come so far if you couldnt.
Hope today is easier for you Jenni.

Love Jay xx

 

[fairyringuk]

Julie ann try and replace your physical addictions with a new hobby or something, then you can put all that energy into that.

Jay xx

 

[quetiapina]

Thanks so much for your kind and wise words everyone. I feel a lot brighter today.

Seb was a pupil at a local comp in which I taught. I was his Head of Year. I feel so terrible that I can only get flashes of who he was - I was responsible for another 175 kids, but I have maintained a lot of friendships with those teens ( now in their twenties). The girl who told me about it was one which I see from time to time and bless her was really upset . I went on the facebook site for him, all those people mourning so badly, and Seb cutting his life short like that. Tragic.

Yesterday was an eye-opener food wise, and although I did not eat more than usual, the Head Hunger really attacked me at a weak point.
Something I am going to have to keep on top of and be very aware of.

Thankyou so much everyone. I really appreciate all of your kind and helpful words xx

 

[Snowcrystal]

:cry: Today I feel low and am finding it harder to work out which is head hunger and which is real hunger.

I had nightmares last night - the feelings from those dreams spilled over into today making me feel sort of cloudy all day. I went to the Weight Management clinic and lost 3lbs which was good, but I felt nothing which is unusual as I usually feel chuffed.

On the way back I stopped at Morrisons and saw a girl who was in my year group when I was a head of Year in a local comp. (She is about 23/24 now). She told me that a lad who had been in her class had comitted suicide last week.

I feel so awful for him, his family and his friends. It's so so sad.

As well as feeling sad, I can't settle to anything and this for me is a danger point with food.

Sorry, just had to get that off my chest.

Love to everyone,

Jen:wave_cry:

It's always terrible to hear of a death, more so when it's a suicide and tragic when it's a young person.

He must have been in a bad place to have contemplated this, but he is at peace now. Unfortunately it's those he leaves behind that have to cope with the feelings of loss...Suicide itself has such far reaching affects.

It's easy to say but try to remember him in happier times...

And with the head hunger, don't give in temptation as you have been doing so well...and you deserve to reach your own goals.

~HUGS~

 

[quetiapina]

Thankyou Snow Crystal.x

 

[gaelic girl]

Glad to hear you are feeling a bit better today Jenni. xx

 

[dreamofbeingslim]

Hi Jenni, so sorry to hear about your friend. Hope you are feeling a little better today. I suffer from depression and did alot of reading and spoke to drs about it (not saying you are suffering from that don't get me wrong) and they said to take each day at a time that things will get better. For me they have thank god. Although could be even better if I get this surgery. Another good thing to do when you are feeling low is to talk and you know where we are if you need us. You have done really well so far keep up the good work. I promise you will feel a lot better soon. Also remember whilst you are typing it is keeping your hands busy so you can't be eating either.