Thanks guys, think its just a bad day as sat here in tears tonight thinking of what if!!! am i doing the right thing, just some people today i have spoke to eg friends, work colleagues have been bit negative - are you sure your doing right thing, its life threatening that kind of thing, so don't think that has helped me..... am okay now after speaking to some good friends, especially Peachie (Zoe) on here as she is having her op on Monday and I've been messaging her and she has been so supportive, Met some lovely people on here and thank you so much for your support xx