Roch
Shrinking away nicely :)
Morning all last night reality really kicked in. At about 2 am i was still twisting and turning and all i could think of was my surgery in 15 days time and finally its my turn 
I am going into the Whittington 24 hrs prior to my surgery as i am a high risk i have to have some blood thinning treatments which cant be done the day of my surgery.
I am scared and excited that finally i have the chance to regain my life and to start living again.
At my heaviest last June i was 27.13 and 2 weeks ago i was 24.8 which i am happy about but i cant see any actual difference in myself, and unfortunately my arthritis and sciatica has got worse even though i lost the chunk of weight.
At the mo i cant say i am living life but more just existing day to day and have been since my health got worse last September.
Of course i am scared i am not going to make it through the surgery but its a fear we all have no matter how much we weight or what health problems we have.
The last 2 weeks have been horrendous for me and it was like living in a nightmare and even now this is on my mind cotinually.
13 days ago my gorgeous dog Tia the red and white one in my signature was knocked over when some bas**rd hit her at 50 mph and did not stop and nearly knocked over my son`s 2 friends but they jumped out of the way thank god.
She was in the vets for 24 hrs and the vet said wat saved her life is the fact that i got her there within 10 mins of the accident as she was just going into major shock, thank god she had no broken bones and no internal injury`s but very bad cuts and swollen all over.
My son said he recognised the car so we went to look for it and found it and went to give all the details to the police and it took all my strength to not sit outside the house it was parked and wait for the bas***d and then tbh i am not sure what i would of done but am sure disabled or not disabled i would of ended up in prison.
The police wrote to us 3 days ago to say they are not taking this any further although its a criminal offence to knock a dog over and leave the scene this has got me so mad that i have gone back 8 times to look for the bast***s car but it has not been there !!
My little girl is a tough cookie and it took her about 10 days till she got back to normal and now apart from being scared of noises and clinging to me she has nearly healed, but the last 10 days i had to watch her wince with pain and shake when she heard any noises and have to be lifted up and down and this hurt me and even to the extent i seriously considered postponing my surgery by 4 weeks till she was fully recovered as the vet said it could take 2/4 weeks for a full recovery.
I know some of u must think i am mad to postpone my surgery for my dog but i luv my girls so much and since i have been housebound they are the ones to snuggle up 2 me and keep me company.
Thankfully i did not have to postpone my surgery and my little girl is doing good.
So now its my turn for my surgery, my bag is packed and ready and i have ticked most of the stuff of my " to do list" and i have got my letters ready hidden away god forbid i dont make it, but please god i will sail through this.
My wls journey has been as long journey for me it has been 3 yrs since i considered having a bypass and on 2 occasions my uncle offered to pay for me to go private but on both occasions i backed out.
The reasons i backed out were firstly Aaron was 14 and i was scared if i did not make it would he be happy living with his dad and could he cope without me and secondly i felt bad about taking so much money of my uncle who was retirement age so in the end i went the NHS route and that was June last year and now hear i am just 15 days away from the start of my new life.
I have made some good friends from MM and now WLS and the support i have had is fab and thank you to all of u for ur on going support.
Its hard to get my head round the idea that my life is going to dramatically change and hopefully by Sept time i can be off these horrible medication i take and start to work again, and in a years time or so when k get to goal to do all the things that people whom dont have a weight problem take for granted, but as i have been overweight since the age of 8 when my beautiful mum died of Breast cancer i feel i have missed out on so much and even at 41 i want to go and do all the things i have missed out and i cant wait.
So March 2nd is my day and bring it on as i am ready for it
I am going into the Whittington 24 hrs prior to my surgery as i am a high risk i have to have some blood thinning treatments which cant be done the day of my surgery.
I am scared and excited that finally i have the chance to regain my life and to start living again.
At my heaviest last June i was 27.13 and 2 weeks ago i was 24.8 which i am happy about but i cant see any actual difference in myself, and unfortunately my arthritis and sciatica has got worse even though i lost the chunk of weight.
At the mo i cant say i am living life but more just existing day to day and have been since my health got worse last September.
Of course i am scared i am not going to make it through the surgery but its a fear we all have no matter how much we weight or what health problems we have.
The last 2 weeks have been horrendous for me and it was like living in a nightmare and even now this is on my mind cotinually.
13 days ago my gorgeous dog Tia the red and white one in my signature was knocked over when some bas**rd hit her at 50 mph and did not stop and nearly knocked over my son`s 2 friends but they jumped out of the way thank god.
She was in the vets for 24 hrs and the vet said wat saved her life is the fact that i got her there within 10 mins of the accident as she was just going into major shock, thank god she had no broken bones and no internal injury`s but very bad cuts and swollen all over.
My son said he recognised the car so we went to look for it and found it and went to give all the details to the police and it took all my strength to not sit outside the house it was parked and wait for the bas***d and then tbh i am not sure what i would of done but am sure disabled or not disabled i would of ended up in prison.
The police wrote to us 3 days ago to say they are not taking this any further although its a criminal offence to knock a dog over and leave the scene
this has got me so mad that i have gone back 8 times to look for the bast***s car but it has not been there !!My little girl is a tough cookie and it took her about 10 days till she got back to normal and now apart from being scared of noises and clinging to me she has nearly healed, but the last 10 days i had to watch her wince with pain and shake when she heard any noises and have to be lifted up and down and this hurt me and even to the extent i seriously considered postponing my surgery by 4 weeks till she was fully recovered as the vet said it could take 2/4 weeks for a full recovery.
I know some of u must think i am mad to postpone my surgery for my dog but i luv my girls so much and since i have been housebound they are the ones to snuggle up 2 me and keep me company.
Thankfully i did not have to postpone my surgery and my little girl is doing good.
So now its my turn for my surgery, my bag is packed and ready and i have ticked most of the stuff of my " to do list" and i have got my letters ready hidden away god forbid i dont make it, but please god i will sail through this.
My wls journey has been as long journey for me it has been 3 yrs since i considered having a bypass and on 2 occasions my uncle offered to pay for me to go private but on both occasions i backed out.
The reasons i backed out were firstly Aaron was 14 and i was scared if i did not make it would he be happy living with his dad and could he cope without me and secondly i felt bad about taking so much money of my uncle who was retirement age so in the end i went the NHS route and that was June last year and now hear i am just 15 days away from the start of my new life.
I have made some good friends from MM and now WLS and the support i have had is fab and thank you to all of u for ur on going support.
Its hard to get my head round the idea that my life is going to dramatically change and hopefully by Sept time i can be off these horrible medication i take and start to work again, and in a years time or so when k get to goal to do all the things that people whom dont have a weight problem take for granted, but as i have been overweight since the age of 8 when my beautiful mum died of Breast cancer i feel i have missed out on so much and even at 41 i want to go and do all the things i have missed out and i cant wait.
So March 2nd is my day and bring it on as i am ready for it
