From days . . .to hours . . .

[top_kat]

The countdown from days . . .has now become hours . . . to think that this time tomorrow I will be taking the dogs to their home from home boarders and then making the journey up the motorway to the hospital.



Holy Moly doesn't even come close to how I feel this morning. But am going to try and enjoy the day at the seaside with my son as much as I can, hopefully it will take my mind off the nerves.

I am not worried about anything about the op, afterwards or anything, only my intense fear of not waking up after the anaesthetic. . . .

I know people will say "you will be fine". "It will be ok", it doesn't help when you have such a fear . . .but still, I have to try to believe in that I am doing the right thing here because if I didn't go through this, there's a whole host of things that could kill me off anyway in a very short space of time (thanks to the reality check doc!)

So, from days . . .to hours . . .

Holy Moly lol

 

[mrscinders]

Aww hun i know how your feeling my kids are going to there nannas tonight as i have to set off before 7am in the morning my daughter keeps crying i keep saying il be ok but shes not listening im a little nervous but more scared of the pain aftetwards good luck hun il be thinking about you tomorow x

 

[bexh]

thinking of you Kat! Hope you're having a great day at the seaside and not getting too nervous?
xx

 

[chrisa]

Ladies my daughter was 24 when i went in last year she could not look at me before i went into hospital she stayed in her room all morning, she came down shortly before i left but couldn't even cuddle me she was soo upset n worried as were the rest of my family, i was excited but had to rein it in because of the family. My friend next door gave me a big hug and she was crying i got loads of little friendship cards off people and my friend next door said she would go in mine when we left to sit with my daughter a bit, i knew she would break her heart. Kid can be so nasty when thye are growing up but regardless of what they say they love their mothers to bits. She would not even come into visit til the last night before i was coming home, she was still tearful and she can be quite a tough cookie. You just have to think what if i dont do this now, what choice do I have any?? No is the answer, we have got to where we are because our other options we have tried and have failed at, its something personal to us we just have to do, we are all frightened of not waking up, the anaesthetists are great people and really encouraging, just listen and ask questions if you need to. x

 

[fab40]

Good Luck Kat, Thinking of you xx

 

[top_kat]

Thanks everyone . . .had a great day at the seaside . . .and I resisted the call of the fish n chips, the ice cream and the donuts LOL

Had a call from the hospital while I was out tho, and they have changed my admission time from 12pm to 11am, which means I can have milk and yoghurt before 530am LOL lucky me!

 

[Tracey1404]

Don't go too wild on that milk n yoghurt Kat. Thinking of you. Look forward to your first post as a fully fledged loser!! Tracey xxx

 

[Sarahj2710]

Good luck Hun, can't wait to hear your updates post surgery.
Xx

 

[chrisa]

THinkn of you top kat ready for tomorrow best of luck lovely, I'll be going to the dentist so i'll be feeling jus like you haha xx

 

[Bellydancer57]

Wishing you good luck & a speedy recovery

 

[cafh]

Wishing you well and hope you have a speedy recovery x

 

[incognito_46]

Good luck for tomorrow. We'll all be there virtually holding your hand x

 

[shelleymarie]

Best of luck for tomorrow Kat, let us know how you are when you can x

 

[top_kat]

Wow, thank you so much everyone for the wishes and for the lovely PMs. they really are appreciated, especially when there's so few people around me IRL.

less than 12 hours to go now, just sorting out my little bag of stuff to take with me, and doing last few things . . .
Got to set off earlier now, so the dogs have to go to the boarders earlier . . .but, now its going to happen, better earlier than later.

I put a box together earlier of "if anything happens throw away without opening", it contains personal journals and things that I dont want anyone to find if anything should happen to me. People will think Im barmy lol

 

[Danniplus4]

Wishing you loads of luck Kat!

The night before my surgery (I went to Czech Rep) I sat in my hotel room crying my eyes out as I wrote letters to each of my four children in case I didn't make it back. I understand your fear. However it will be the best thing you ever do and I'll be only too happy to shuffle up and make room for you on the losers bench

 

[ceejay]

Morning Kat. :wavey: Don't think you'll have time to pop on here before you leave this morning, but still wanted to wish you all the luck in the world.
Can't wait to read your first post as a post-opper!
Sending virtual hugs and holding your cyber hand... :grouphugg:

 

[Maphillips]

Today has arrived good luck

 

[chrisa]

THinkn of ya xx

 

[Wobbletogo]

Good luck Kat and Mrscinders, will be thinking of you today, though tomorow I shall be chewing what's left of my nails off followed by many hours of sleep lol

See you on the losers bench!

 

[mrscinders]

Mines not until tomorow wobble hope your ok kat xx