Hi baby seed maybe you need to set yourself some goals as you approach your surgery date. This may make it a bit easier for you and get your head around it. I believe if the head is in the right place then you can do anyhting, i often have to give myself a good talking to and then decide on a day to start again. You need to slow down and stop bingeing, there is very little I can't eat and I am over a year out of bypass surgery. Just try having a small amount of what you want, n make it last. Get your pre op diet sorted out n have a look at what you need to buy in if anything make a list, keep looking at it till your mind is focussed and on task. You cannot really afford to put any weight on as some surgeons can be quite strict and cancel ops, i would have been mortified if i couldn't have had mine and am sure you would to, you just have to get yourself into the mindset and away you go. Best of luck for the op and pre op diet, just ask if we can help you with anyhting it is a difficult and scary stage when we think we will never be able to eat properley again, that is not the case, some things people cannot tollerate but most of us can eat a lot of different things, and your pallett does change a bit after the op. xx