Sorry I wrote an essay and lost it....start again.
So I have made the biggest and scariest decision I ever made. I am going to get WLS.
A bit of background...I was lucky I was never 'big' through school, I did however develop an emotional attachment to food in my teens. At 16 I met my boyfriend (now husband), I went on the pill, and from there I just grew and grew and grew. I was diagnosed with clinical depression, on my many low days I ate, and ate and are. In my 20s I done the usual weight watchers, Rosemary Connelly, and slimming world. I start with the BEST intentions and determined to shift the weight. But a bad day, would turn to a bad week, and then month and on it would go. 5 years ago I done lipotrim a done very well I lost 6 stone. But guess what I gained it all back and some.
So now here I am. I'm 35. 21 stone with BMI 45. A wonderful husband and 2 beautiful children. Yet I am utterly miserable.
It's time to get this sorted. I have to and this is my last resort. My health is suffering. My knees are completely worn, My back just hurts (all the time), I can't walk up the stairs without a break halfway, I have stress incontinace, and can't even reach to wipe myself after going to the loo, I have to shower and I am now a snug fit in the bath, and I can't get out without the help of hubby. So far I've dodged diabetes and blood pressure problems...but I feel I'm a ticking time bomb. If don't do so etching now I will have to give up my full time job, sit at home sitting in puddle of pee and stinking of s*#t and being cared for by my hubby and 2 young boys.
My gp prescribed diet pills, but I'm struggling the side effects are grim. This is not a decision I've taken lightly but one I kept to myself for a long time. I've researched for months and read many posts on this forum. I plucked up the courage to talk to hubby and my mum. I was shocked they said do it please!! So next week I am back to my GP with my mum for moral support to ask for referral. I have no idea what will happen, what he will say or wether it will be an nhs option, if not I will private fund. But my gp Is my first step. I am in north hampshire so think Southampton will be where I have to go. I have no idea what the wait list is, what tier I will be on or even if I will get approved. I'm scared, I'm scared I'll be told no and I'll be stuck like this forever.
So that's my loooong story and here I am. I look forward to sharing and making new friends. There are lots of amazing people on here who have achieved amazing things. I hope in the future I am in a position to be able to help and support people in the position I am in now.