My ideal weight is somewhere in the 7st odd - 9st 1lb range, I chose 9st because it would get me to around the 25 BMI range. However, when I told the folks at the weight clinic at Spire a month or so ago they looked at me, looked a little concerned and said "you could go higher than that" and that made me really think about things. My tummy alone is rather heavy with quite dense loose skin, I reckon my tummy alone is 7lbish of skin alone, then you have the rest of me, I personally think that I am carrying around at least 1st of excess skin, so whatever weight I am on the scales I know that I can technically ignore. I have now reset my goal weight to 10st and do hope that I get there but anything within half a stone-ish of that is good by me. When I met my surgeon and we talked about goals and I said about target weights he said that I shouldnt concentrate on simply a number, a clothes size is a good aim too, so I said that I would ideally be a size 14 at goal, a 12 would be a dream but a 14 was more than I could ask for, I never imagined I would ever get smaller than a 16...I am at around 11st 7lbs now, so I am a good stone and half away from goal, but I am already in a 12/14, I never even fantasised that I would really get here, it feels simply wonderful, but if Im at goal clothes size and not goal weight then I have to reset my goal size too I guess. This sounds terrible I know, because many many women would adore being a size 8/10 but I truly dont want to be that small, a solid 10 would be the smallest I would ever want to be, so what do I make my goals to be? Do I carry on to get to 10st and just take whatever dress size comes with that or do I carry on until I am in the clothing I want to be in and then stop there? I have been so fixated on that 10st that I dont really know how to reset my goals again now.
So Im really not sure of what Im meant to do...aim for that goal weight or go for the goal clothes size?!
Its all very confusing and I guess you just have to consider what you want and need from the journey.
Steph xx