My life has changed dramatically already. I can shop in the normal section of clothes shops, and not the plus size section! I can go swimming, without feeling like a blimp that everyones laughing at.
Food no longer controls me, I control food. I don't spend most of my day planning my next meal. I don't feel the need to binge eat or to starve myself. If I want chocolate, I have a small amount, not 6 bars.
I can walk better, my walking stick is not a constant aid now, only an occasionaly one.
When I go to partys I dance, without fear of wounding someone with my flailing ripples of fat.
When someone points a camera at me I smile, instead of hide. When the photo appears on facebook, I tag myself, instead of crying and seeking solace in the comfy world that is cadburys.
When my son wants to go on a fairground ride, I go with him! I no longer fear getting stuck, or not fitting. I still have long legs, so it's still not great, but the bar closes without squishing me!
I am not in pain. I don't take prescription strong pain killers on a daily basis. Well, maybe once a month tops. I had forgotten what it felt like to not feel constant pain, it's good.
I can wear socks. I have large feet at a size 8-9, but the fat made them wide too. I could only ever wear mens socks, so told everyone around me that I hated wearing socks and would go bare feet. I'll let you in on a secret, I love socks. Todays are a blue affair with cocktail glasses and cherrys on them! My feet are warm when we go outside. Bliss.
I feel sexy.
I don't feel the need to talk as much. I used to have to be that big and bubbly type to cover my low self esteem and fears. I don't need to be that person any more, I can just be me, and I like to be quiet sometimes.
I care about my appearance. Cos do you know what, my appearance isn't that bad! I have covered up my grey hair, and occasionally moisturise
I can eat in public, as I don't feel like everyone's looking at me! What I choose to eat and enjoy eating is healthier, and I enjoy the flavours instead of just seeing how much I can ram down my throat.
Think I'd better stop there!