Sarah
You have done so well to loose 19lbs by yourself thats such a achievement,you should be really proud of yourself.
I remember when i came out of hospital after my failed bypass due to a fatty liver i thought "bugga it why am i bothering"and i went and had a macdonalds,after eating it i felt really guilty dont get me wrong i enjoyed it,but it was a case of `this is why i need a tool to help me loose weight`
So i came home and started again on the healthy eating,everyone has a hic cup when they are dieting,dietician say there are no,no foods as it makes you crave it more,but there are healthy alternatives tho.
You know you can do this and 19lbs proves you can,dont dwell on the past few days,as cazbandy says you are only human.
I know you said you are in the system but it might be worth a call to see how far up the system you are,and maybe remind them you are still waiting.
Good luck.
xx