oh cant belive it... i fly out on tuesday (2 days) and my op on wed. i am so nervous. the thought of being put out under anaesthetic. i know this is something that has to be done. i want my happiness back. what a journey to go through tho! tomoro will be my last blog until i am a bandit... arghhhh. afraid of the pain that i may endure. will buy the neurofen meltlets tomorrow (melt on tongue pain relief). i will enquire what sort of mouth sprays i can take as i know i will be Nil by mouth. reading everyone elses diaries is inspiring, but reality is setting in. I am going to be Banded and its scary .... all your lovely comments really do keep me going... talk soon xx:wave_cry: