d.brown3103
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i have an interview on Friday! i have not worked for over 7 yrs because i have been at home raising my kids. i really need this job! im scared because i have yet to be around anyone who hasn't know about my surgery! i have no idea what to tell these people or even how. so so nervous its coming round so quick i dont feel ready for it. i really like the job and i know i have to qualifications to do the job but i have lost all the self confidence i once had in the job world. been away from it for to long i think lol. i'm trying not to put pressure on myself and i have asked santa to please please let this be my only xmas pressie lol i just hope he got my message. this job would really change my life. it would mean i can get house/home life back under control as this last year it has been spiriling out of control. it would also mean i can afford to get back to the gym which i have been missing so much. it would also help as i desperately need new clothes lol and will be needing many more in the next yr lol. i have been feeling really out of sorts and a couple of times found myself in the kitchen looking for food!!! my old habit is harder to get rid of than i thought. at least i cant binge eat like i used to when things were hard. i really dont want to fall back into old habits but am really confused about what i should feel or do.
sorry for ranting but finding it hard to find people to talk to about this without causing worry or upset. thanks for letting me ramble on lol