into my journey

[blondelozzie]

Well i have posted a few times but decided to now keep a diary.

I am 2 weeks post op and have lost 23lbs in total now which i am well happy with! 23lbs in 4 weeks wow

Been a turbulant 4 weeks mind you, what with having the op and loosing my uncle very suddenly, only an uncle some may say? but no he was closer to me than my dad, he gave me away (twice lol!) at my wedding(s) and meant the world to myself and my daughters.
But i am very proud of the fact that I am making this work as he lent me the money to have this done as he could see how unhappy i was, I just wish he could be here to see the results:cry:

I love socialising with my very close group of friends, we are (not proud of this fact) typical weekend binge drinkers, not going out before we are unable to walk on a bottle of voddie! But i have been very good and the last couple of weekends i have been to friends houses and just had squash and not gone to the pubs with them after, i have realised that you cant go out with my friends when u r sober lol! God is that really what I am like after a skin full???

I am now onto my 'mush' stage but have found over the weekend that i can actually eat most things

My girls had a donner kebab last night and it smelled so nice i decided to nibble on a bit, we have a lovely kebab house near us and thank god its not a nasty greasy one! I did think, this aint gonna be easy but it went down very nicely! I stopped myself after 3 strips but i am angry with myself for having them!
I suppose however that I DID actually stop because before i would have had a large one with chips and finished off their leftovers too!!!
So thats it they are now officially banned from my house unless im not here lol!

I have been honest, not that there is any shame in having it done nor wanting to keep it quiet, and told the whole world that i have had this done most people have been very very supportive and to those that havnt??? well they can hahahahaha

Yes im looking forward to looking damn good in new clothes when i can go buy them, but more importantly i am looking forward to feeling healthy, being able to walk to work without dragging on my asthma inhaler! I have noticed the difference already mind you!
I am going to be around for a long time to see my family and grandchildren (not yet tho please my 17 & 15 year old girls i am talking in the future!!!!!) grow and not by getting bigger and bigger and subjecting myself to all those nasty obese related health conditions that i was heading towards!

So this is me blondelozzie, getting smaller blondelozzie instead of big blondelozzie!
I welcome any advice, comments or critisms, i love a chat and a gossip and most of all I am learning to love myself! (thankyou darling uncle for this opportunity)

wooooohooooo 23 bloody pound gone!!!! yeyyyyyy:8855:

 

[rickysmrs]

Firslty sorry for your loss re your uncle second yayyyyyy well done on your weight loss so far...................keep up the good work and remember you are only cheating yourself when you do have a little cheat . Take Care xxx

 

[kellsbells]

So sorry about your uncle hun sounds like he was a real father figure to you he would be so proud I your loss so far! Well done 23 lb is amazing! Look forward to reading how you get on good luck! Xxx

 

[southfields12]

hi did you have the band at dolan park on the 1st, i did and we seem to have the same surgon. im glad to hear somone else feels the same, ive only lost 10lb so far including pre op, ive semi reverted back to my old ways as i was feeling down at not losing weight so i tested and i have no restistance, im due for a fill on the 4th oct and cant wait. i need to know i cant eat these foods and if i do it will be painful. i know im letting myself down and feel so bad

 

[blondelozzie]

Ah southfields12 I know the feeling if I didn't have that little angel on my shoulder reminding me about my uncle that I have to be good then I would be eating everything in site like I did before I started my pre-op (I gained 10lb). I'm not having my fill till the 10th cos I can't get to the clinic they booked me into , that's gonna be hard cos I'm only on mush for another week and then got nearly 3 weeks of normal! Yes I was at Dolan park, I was very impressed with the place but then I had my 2 friends there all day with me so didn't have time to think too much about it.
The only thing I was upset about was I got there the night before had my bloods done and was last on the list at 11 to be admitted! The receptionist said that was mad and tried to get me moved up a bit but they wouldn't have it! When I went down to theatre the anesatist said 'oh yes u we're the late arrival which is why you were last on the list!!!!! I was fuming bloody cheek! Mr el has anti is a miserable bugger ain't he? Lol!
I'm sure it will all start working well for you when you have your fill, keep in touch and let's do this together!
I'm always here if u need to chat to sound off at all xxx

 

[Carre]

Wow that's a great loss so far well done you, and I think your right about the kebab my usual would be a chicken and Donna mix with chips and pita ( I'm a big fatty I know lol )
I think you are right also about negative people one of my mates husband said I'm a CHEAT I was really pissed off I don't think I'm a cheat no more then a smoker having patches!!

Silly man has never had a weight issue so I wouldn't expect understanding just made me down... Xx

 

[snack]

Well done lady's your doing fantastic big pat on the back for u 2 x

 

[kellsbells]

Wow that's a great loss so far well done you, and I think your right about the kebab my usual would be a chicken and Donna mix with chips and pita ( I'm a big fatty I know lol )
I think you are right also about negative people one of my mates husband said I'm a CHEAT I was really pissed off I don't think I'm a cheat no more then a smoker having patches!!

Silly man has never had a weight issue so I wouldn't expect understanding just made me down... Xx

Take no notice to the silly man! Tell him if he can't say nothing nice to say nothing at all xxx

 

[southfields12]

hi blondlozzie yes he was a bit grumpy not exactley a people person lol. i was told to get there for 7 but didnt go down till 5 it seemed to take forever. it would defo be great to have someone who has had it done at the same time x im having my fill on the 5th .
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[blondelozzie]

I'm having my fill on the 10th Was booked in for the 1st but can't get to the cambridge clinic very easily so had to rearrange for London one and wait for my days off
Gutted, I want it now! Although I'm being good I am looking at food in a more 'I can have that' way!!! A very very naughty scream egg found its way into my very willing mouth yesterday!! I could have had more but I did stop myself!
Hope your doing well southfields12?
Arghhhhhhh fooooooood!

 

[Meggie moo]

Blondlozzie on the 1st did you stop and get your photo taken outside DP? If you did I must have passed you coming out after getting bloods done lol

 

[blondelozzie]

Haha yes that was me!

 

[Dimples70]

That's soo funny x

 

[blondelozzie]

Well I managed to loose another pound this week

I am quite happy with this although very surprised if I'm honest! I have been eating loads of normal food this weekend even though I'm still meant to be on mush?


I have been chewing to a pulp but managed everything


Not having my 1st fill till 11th oct need to get out of this 'curious to see if I can' frame of mind cos it was obvious by my roast lamb dinner last night that I bloody well CAN!!! I only had 2 roast pots tho instead of normal 22! And no yorkies!! And lots of veggies it was probably only 1/3 of what I would have usually had but still more than I wanted!


Busy week this week, gonna be an emotional one too, got the funeral this Wednesday :'( and I'm gonna be having a bloody good drink after! 1st time having alcohol in nearly 6 weeks! So I say I'm gonna have a good drink but in reality I will prob be under the table after 2-3 lol!
Not gonna worry about the calories or diet that day, sod it think I'm gonna need it!
But I will be back on wagon on Thursday I promise

 

[blondelozzie]

Ok so yesterday was very emotional, if tears weighed summit I would have lost 4 stone! But we gave dear old uncle the loveliest send off I could have wished for him.

I also had my 1st drink, oh ok and my 2nd, 3rd, 4th and maybe 5th drink in 6 weeks! It appears that I also can eat bread? Far too many sarnys were consumed, feel very bloated today tho.


Should I be able to eat bread? I have an empty band at moment can't wait to have my 1st fill it can't come quick enough!

 

[flutterby1966]

Be careful with regards to the amount of bread because although you may have no fill, there's still a band at the top of your stomach which may be providing some restriction. Just follow your providers guidance what you should be eating/avoiding...and you should not go far wrong X

 

[blondelozzie]

Thank you Michelle (flutterby) to be honest they did say avoid bread, but as it was at the wake after funeral I was just picking at the food! I prob only had maybe 4 slices during the day but was hoping I couldn't eat it but alas it went down very easily Back on track now tho cos we have booked our holiday for next year and I gotta be tons smaller cos I'm off to Florida again woohoo!
Went 2 years ago and the safety bars were very 'squashy' to the point of strangulation!
Plus wanna swim with dolphins again, done it 10 years ago but that was after 18 months at weight watchers and 4 stone lighter lol!
Want to have a dolphin pull me, not for them to have to get killer whale to do it hahahaha

 

[blondelozzie]

oh dear, no loss this week, but to be fair have slightly overdone the eating normal food this weekend.

stating all over again tho today, being very good as its just down to my willpower at the moment.

Really really want my first fill only 10 days to go! wonder if they would like to half fill me to save time and waiting for next one lol???

I know i know they wont do that, i have a 10ml band any ideas on how much they will do 1st fill?

I have found a few foods that i have pain with when eating, ham being the worst! absent mindly ate a bit whilst doing packed lunches for family.....oh my god thought i wa going to die! drank water to help. ok lesson learned it doesnt! just brought water back up cos i guess it had no where to go cos of ham blocking the way?

when is it safe to start excersising? i want a cross trainer, my friend has one i can buy but dont wanna get it just yet if i cant use it cos i know i will as soon as it is here and dontwanna do any damage? when did everyone else start after op? i am 4 weeks post op and feel fine, walking everywhere already but this was what i used to do anyway so dont really see it as 'excersise' as its the norm for me.

oh i just want to thin, toned and georgeous hahahahaha best start saving for more plastic surgery then

 

[blondelozzie]

well im off for my 1st band fill today, i cant wait it seems to be so long in coming!
I am a bit nervous, i keep thinking they are going to tell me something is wrong with my band or something! is that normal?
I really wan tobe loosing more weight than i am but i know slowly and steadily is the way.
Its just when you see people that have lost 3-4stone in as many months..... but then i am only 6 weeks post op i suppose and 26lb is a great achievement its just 19lb of that was pre op so not much after
Hopefully i will get some good from this fill, how long is it till i can have another?
I just want to have the 'wow' factor at xmas when i see all the skinny rellies that u only ever see at xmas

 

[misselvis]

hi blondelozzie

i am going to dolan park on sunday 14th oct
have to be there for 7.30 am so hope i am not kept waiting to long
as i will be by myself
nothing worse than waiting
with nerves all to over the place think i would have burst out crying
if he had said that to me
hope you feeling ok now
would be interested to know what happens when you get to dolan park and after
the op

kay xx