Lookingforabetterme
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I am sick to death of peoples insensitive comments and actions.
I have a mirror and been weighed constantly over the last few months, so I am aware my weight has increased. However, I did not ask you whether you feel I have gained weight.
Twice this month, someone has told me I'm getting fat. Not discreetly, loudly in front of lots of people. The upsetting thing was, neither are my close personal friends and one I don't even know her name.
People don't realise the struggle that comes with being over weight. At the moment I absolutely hate myself, it's a struggle to sleep, wake up, get dressed, leave the house, enter the work place etc. this is the heaviest I have EVER been, I'm in so much pain I can't sleep.
Saw my Dr today, first time in a while and she said you have gained, I can see it. She was very sensitive about the situation and we spoke about the process and the length of time until the next stage. She was reassuring, gave me pain killers and told me to stay strong.
Strong, is proving to be very hard at the moment. I just could cry at the drop of a hat. I think I'm frustrating my mum and my partner. He's been great, and tries so hard to get me out the house and gives me complements all the time. This doesn't help though as I feel awful within myself.
I hate colleagues looking at me, one comments EVERYDAY on what I'm eating for lunch. I know she means well, but I don't want to be on the spotlight everyday because today I don't want to eat a salad. I've asked her politely to stop, I don't feel I have to explain my medical history just to get some respect and peace at lunch time.
Then to top it all of, I still have 4 months before I even get to speak to the psychiatrist.
Sorry for ranting, I'm just totally fed up.
I have a mirror and been weighed constantly over the last few months, so I am aware my weight has increased. However, I did not ask you whether you feel I have gained weight.
Twice this month, someone has told me I'm getting fat. Not discreetly, loudly in front of lots of people. The upsetting thing was, neither are my close personal friends and one I don't even know her name.
People don't realise the struggle that comes with being over weight. At the moment I absolutely hate myself, it's a struggle to sleep, wake up, get dressed, leave the house, enter the work place etc. this is the heaviest I have EVER been, I'm in so much pain I can't sleep.
Saw my Dr today, first time in a while and she said you have gained, I can see it. She was very sensitive about the situation and we spoke about the process and the length of time until the next stage. She was reassuring, gave me pain killers and told me to stay strong.
Strong, is proving to be very hard at the moment. I just could cry at the drop of a hat. I think I'm frustrating my mum and my partner. He's been great, and tries so hard to get me out the house and gives me complements all the time. This doesn't help though as I feel awful within myself.
I hate colleagues looking at me, one comments EVERYDAY on what I'm eating for lunch. I know she means well, but I don't want to be on the spotlight everyday because today I don't want to eat a salad. I've asked her politely to stop, I don't feel I have to explain my medical history just to get some respect and peace at lunch time.
Then to top it all of, I still have 4 months before I even get to speak to the psychiatrist.
Sorry for ranting, I'm just totally fed up.
it's awful I don't understand how people can be soo insensitive to people's feelings. Of course I have it constantly too! Never understood how ppl are just plain mean never been in my nature! Just don't let the comments and wait get you down and set you back....Think of the goal. I kno I been there I was first referred 2010 but always failed to lose weight in my depressive state. Got re - referred 5 stone heavier, this year and op in a few weeks x
