Just had the call...

[Shadylawns]

Just had the call from SRH to say they can operate on 17th May' they will send me all the relevant paperwork!!

My emotions have just gone into a free falling spiral! I don't know whether to be excited or bricking it! I've put weight back on since my initial consultations, and now I'm worried that they'll open me up, take a look and close me up without doing anything!

I'm now having a knee jerk reaction of trying to lose as much weight as possible in the time I have left. I feel soooo useless, but get so disheartened with all the waiting....and just eat. I don't have eating triggers, I just do it, which makes me feel worse. We've all been there.

I'm worried that they're going to refuse me for some reason. But if I could do this without surgical help then I wouldn't be here!

I'm sick of being so blahdy self pitying, why couldn't I just man up and lose weight like normal people? why couldn't I just be normal?!

My heads pounding, and I'm hot, cold, hot, cold, I only got the call a couple of hours ago!!

Why am I crying? Is it the realisation that it's real now? I'm not scared of the nitty gritty hospitalisation itself, going under, etc. am I crying in shame at my self indulgence? Or out of self pity that I won't be able to stuff my face anymore? I'm a bright girl, why have I done this to myself? Please tell me is normal to feel like this!

:cry::cry:

 

[widdershins]

Congrats on your date!!

Now, breathe, and calm down.

We've all been there - but if we could do without medical intervention, we wouldnt be here, would we?
Take some time to absorb the news - think about the positives.

Oh, and you'll lose on the pre-op diet, so dont panic.

 

[SleeveGirl]

Congratulations Shadylawns!! :553:

The tears have to be happy tears - you are taking control and changing your life

 

[happy days]

Wow fab news x

 

[chrisa]

Exactly what happenedto me waited son long it was stedaily going back on had 4 weeks similar time to you I did it lost nearly 2 stone myself and the liver shrinking diet by the day of my op so can be done. Stay calm get your head in gear right down a plan if thats how you like to work menu or whatever keeps you focussed but YOU WILL AND CAN DO IT, BELIEVE ME. You have waited like I did and this is the final push its like what was said above if we could lose and keep it off we would have no need for this op, so enjoy today and get it sussed out to start tomorrow. YOur new life awaits xxxxxx

 

[borogirl]

Congrats. They were fab with me. Now make a list and include earplugs!

 

[Redorlando]

You will be fine, I had my bypass done yesterday at SRH & they are fantastic. Its natural ti worry, its major surgery & everyone goes through the waves of emotion. Think about the end result & this will keep you going.
All the best for your surgery xx

 

[Shadylawns]

Thanks everybody. Xx. My friend has just been on the blower for an hour supporting me, and I really do feel better, though my heads still hurting!

It's clichéd isn't it, but there really are people out there like me, furtively stuffing their faces at one point, wondering why them? I thought it was just me!

Chrisa, 'forum master' your post was very supportive, thankyou x I like 'forum master' - do you get promoted to Jedi Master soon lol, I'd love to be that!!!

Borogirl - are you a light sleeper, or is it really that noisy?! I'm a heavy sleeper normally, but have a CPAP machine - so they can't blame me for snoring haha!

Redorlando - Brilliant, you had yours done only yesterday! Can't wait to hear how you get on! Are you home now, then? My mum reckons she can drop me off, have a look round the shops and pick me up later!!! I don't think I'll be quite that quick!!

How long did you lot stay in hospital for? I think I'll have a search on here, see what people's experiences were.

Thanks again all. Xx

Mrs Lawns.

 

[Redorlando]

The nurses said I could go home this morning as I have recovered so well, but as I live over 2hrs away the Consultant Mr Hawkins said I need to stay another night, just in case! I think they like everyone to stay 2 nights.

 

[Shadylawns]

Redorlando, cheers, I'll bear that in mind. X

S.