MrsDuck
New Member
I'm sure many have seen me popping up here and there, however after 4 days of doing precisely NOTHING whilst camping with my OH and our 2 Maltese pooches (Rex & Rocky) I've had lots of time to think - dangerous stuff!! And I decided I'd do a bit of a diary! So here's my little story...
I'm 25, and 20 stone! I kid myself I'm a size 18, but realistically a 22. I refuse to buy a 22 so if the 18 doesn't fit, I don't buy it. I've become an expert shopper at knowing what will fit! I work full time. Live in a village like Emmerdale where everyone know everything. Done the usual diets, lost a few stone, put them back on with another stone to boot and I've ended up here. Wanted a band for years, family and friends at the time thought I didn't need one so I gave up on the idea as having their support played a big part in my decision. Anyway, now 3 years later and 5 stone heavier, I asked friends and family AGAIN last month if they thought that surgery would now be an option and everyone has agreed... so here I am.
When I first joined the forum I had total tunnel vision for a band, I knew everything about a band, how it worked, pros & cons etc. However after seeing my surgeon last week - Prof Ammori - he advised I switched to sleeve. When I was 5 stone lighter and first looking at surgery, a band would have been ideal, however now at 20 stone a sleeve is the more appropriate choice. I have even more weight to loose now and realistically, the band was pushing it. It should come off with a sleeve.
So, we're all booked for 6th May at Spire Manchester.
Feelings & thoughts have been pretty non existent up until this weekend. I hadn't had time to think until now, but having no tv & mobiles to hand is a dangerous situation to be in! This weekend has been a bit of a rollercoaster. Thoughts like:
What if I die? What's going to happen to my new hubby? Should I leave a 'goodbye' note? Should I say 'goodbye'?
Am I being selfish?
Spending all this money on myself and the OH sees none of it?
What am I going to tell people when they ask how I've lost so much weight?
Other nice thoughts like:
Shopping in Topshop, Zara, H&M, River Island. I want a leather jacket from All Saints & a North Face camping coat.
Being able to lift my body into a sleeping bag, rather than shuffling in and ruining the whole made bed.
Not worrying about breaking/fitting in to camping/plastic chairs (not done so yet, but it ALWAYS crosses my mind!)
Not worrying about fitting through turn stiles on country walks and in museums etc.
Not worrying about fitting in the aeroplane seat.
So, I've eaten about 50 last suppers this past two weeks - not good and not recommended. Anyone would think I was never going to eat again. So for that reason, I'm doing a 2 week LSD starting tomorrow. The Prof said I only had to do 1 week, but because the healthy eating has gone out of the window recently, I've decided to do two - it won't do me any harm and it'll also prepare me for what's to come post op. I'm going to do the milk & yog diet. I'm thinking Complan or something similar for B, muller yog for L & soup/very healthy meal (salad) for T.. Does this sound ok?
I'm so excited for the new me. I packed the tent away today thinking "the next time I get you out, I'll be the new me"
Until next time xx
I'm 25, and 20 stone! I kid myself I'm a size 18, but realistically a 22. I refuse to buy a 22 so if the 18 doesn't fit, I don't buy it. I've become an expert shopper at knowing what will fit! I work full time. Live in a village like Emmerdale where everyone know everything. Done the usual diets, lost a few stone, put them back on with another stone to boot and I've ended up here. Wanted a band for years, family and friends at the time thought I didn't need one so I gave up on the idea as having their support played a big part in my decision. Anyway, now 3 years later and 5 stone heavier, I asked friends and family AGAIN last month if they thought that surgery would now be an option and everyone has agreed... so here I am.
When I first joined the forum I had total tunnel vision for a band, I knew everything about a band, how it worked, pros & cons etc. However after seeing my surgeon last week - Prof Ammori - he advised I switched to sleeve. When I was 5 stone lighter and first looking at surgery, a band would have been ideal, however now at 20 stone a sleeve is the more appropriate choice. I have even more weight to loose now and realistically, the band was pushing it. It should come off with a sleeve.
So, we're all booked for 6th May at Spire Manchester.
Feelings & thoughts have been pretty non existent up until this weekend. I hadn't had time to think until now, but having no tv & mobiles to hand is a dangerous situation to be in! This weekend has been a bit of a rollercoaster. Thoughts like:
What if I die? What's going to happen to my new hubby? Should I leave a 'goodbye' note? Should I say 'goodbye'?
Am I being selfish?
Spending all this money on myself and the OH sees none of it?
What am I going to tell people when they ask how I've lost so much weight?
Other nice thoughts like:
Shopping in Topshop, Zara, H&M, River Island. I want a leather jacket from All Saints & a North Face camping coat.
Being able to lift my body into a sleeping bag, rather than shuffling in and ruining the whole made bed.
Not worrying about breaking/fitting in to camping/plastic chairs (not done so yet, but it ALWAYS crosses my mind!)
Not worrying about fitting through turn stiles on country walks and in museums etc.
Not worrying about fitting in the aeroplane seat.
So, I've eaten about 50 last suppers this past two weeks - not good and not recommended. Anyone would think I was never going to eat again. So for that reason, I'm doing a 2 week LSD starting tomorrow. The Prof said I only had to do 1 week, but because the healthy eating has gone out of the window recently, I've decided to do two - it won't do me any harm and it'll also prepare me for what's to come post op. I'm going to do the milk & yog diet. I'm thinking Complan or something similar for B, muller yog for L & soup/very healthy meal (salad) for T.. Does this sound ok?
I'm so excited for the new me. I packed the tent away today thinking "the next time I get you out, I'll be the new me"
Until next time xx
had a terrible headache on the second day but none since then and it wasn't too bad.
