my journey

[mandyl]

hi
thought id start a diary not very good so please bare with me.
i first asked my dr for a band in 2007 and at the time he said i wouldnt meet the criteria and i should start walking. i hate walking!. i tried to go with my ex husband but just cried as i hated it and it gave me back ache. think i managed to go 3 times. gave up and just carried on as usual.
in may 2008 steve left ,i hardly ate but still never lost anything. just under a year later i went back to dr and he agreed to refere me.
i was lucky as didnt wait long till my first app and saw mr slater about 6 weeks later. he said i could have a bypass. so my journey began

 

[lotsabeefy]

Hey Mandy thanks for sharing Honey xxxx

 

[margaretmc]

Hi Mandy
I`ll be looking forward to reading your story hun good luck and take care .
Margaret xx

 

[claudia24]

thanks for sharing mandy hope ur doing well xx

 

[mandyl]

i went to see guy on the 18th may. saw nurse first who explained everything then i went in and saw the surgeon. he was a lovely man and explained everything,he then asked what op i wanted. i was gobsmacked i just thought they told you. i found myself saying bypass as i told him that id just cheat with a band, so we agreed on a band. he shook my hand and i said when would i find out if i could have op? he said oh you can have op thought id made that clear,god i felt like a twat!. i left and just punched the air i was so excited. it was a strange feeling as a few days later i thought oh god no cant do it.
i joined minis which is a life saver and went through the elated to terrified stages. i read everything i could find brought a book and spent every minute on the internet.
i started getting my appointments through with a little nudge from me . all went well and then it was physch time. i was very worried about this one due to my depression. one of the drs at practice was against it thinking i just wouldnt cope and i left in tears terrified they would say no. i then saw physch and she was fine about things and said there wouldnt be a problem. i left hospital happier and went to a mates for dinner.
i often had dinner at my mates and everytime always came back feeling ill,poor emma used to get the blame. one evening i had a terrible pain in my right side and all up my back. took myself to out of hrs who said i bet youve got gallstones,aarrgghhh.

 

[Delly]

just to say hello and thanks for sharing your diary hope your ok delly

 

[mandyl]

i tried to ignore the pain because i thought it would effect op but eventually it got the better of me and i ended up admitted to hospital. i met a horrible surgeon who said dont take gallbladders out unless an emergency! so i went home only to be straight back 3hrs later in agony.
i was a lovely ward and then mr slater came to see me,he said i could have gallbladder out keyhole or hed do open op and take gallbladder at same time. i said yeah open op please and gave him a big hug. he said ill try and get a bed for tomorrow. i was thrilled. sadly it wasnt to be and the next day he came to tell me he just couldnt get me a bed,hed tried in the morning and in the evening . i thought back tears and he stood at the end of my bed looking a upset as me. he said im not hopeful but i will try agan tomorrow. about half an hour later nurse came to tell me i was bein transfered to another ward ready for surgery tomorrow. next morning nurse came got me up and ready to go to theatre . sadly i sat waiting till 3pm then a dr who i now know as ali hd the job of telling me it wasnt going ahead. id got fed up of waiting so went for a walk up ward,just as i got to nurses station he said mrs lenn can eat and drink and i burst into tears. poor dr said have i said the wrong thing and nurse said yes you have. he was very nice and said mr slater has sent a note to secretary to get you a date in about a month. so off i went home,bit scared of pain but just stuck to salad.

 

[kathleen1960]

seems like you have had a rough journey mandy hun x

 

[mandyl]

thanks kath, yeah did but getting there now. glad your ok too. xx

 

[mandyl]

so i was at home munching on salad and pestering christine at st richards. one day i lost all common sense and went up to talk to viela in tears. we had a chat and i went up with her to see christine. she flew at viela but in the end she turnt out to be just very busy. my notes were on top of mr slaters pile just as shed promised. i went home happier. got call about a week later.