Hello all
In 2015 I had a RNY bypass. My thread is here if anyone fancies a read!
By mid 2016 I had lost about 15 stone, I had started a new relationship and quit my job to start a new life back home in a different county.
In 2017 I had my surgeries on my skin, and in 2018 I rejoined society, got a new job, moved in with the boy and my team was fiercely competitive and obsessed with their weight so they kept me on track. I even joined a gym and learnt how to ride a bike! (I hate it lol.) I still crash dieted when I was going on holiday and I still would never wear a swimming costume in public or shorts or a sleeveless top due to the scars and stretch marks.
In October 2019 I got a new job an hour's drive away. I used to walk 15m to work every day and now I drive everywhere. I drive and sit. And I eat and I drink. I get home too late to have any energy to do any exercise, and also I hate it. And in the past six months my weight has been creeping up! I was feeling actually really unhappy about it, or I should say I AM feeling unhappy about it. But last week I joined slimming world online and in feeling so much better about being in control again.
I have 2 stone to lose to get back to my lightest ever, but I want to push that further. The boy weighs 10 1/2 stone and it's still my life goal to weigh less than him!! And he is about 2.5 stone away at the moment.
While I was reading up on slimming world I was reading articles on the water weight, the head hunger, the stalls and it made me remember this forum. I thought I'd give an update on the weight story since my surgeries.
1) my hair did not grow back. I have to use hair fibres every time I wash it now as so much scalp is visible
2) I can eat as much as a regular person, easily. I made the decision to try and stretch my pouch so that I can enjoy eating with others and wouldn't feel any different to them. Apart from my parents and my best friend, no one knows I had wls
3) my stomach still doesn't rumble when I'm hungry (yay!)
4) I do feel hungry but not as much at all, and only when I haven't eaten in hours
5) if left to my own devices (e.g. working from home in lockdown) I will eat bad things constantly. And I find as I'm eating one thing I'm already looking forward to eating the next thing so I eat it as quickly as possible. Living with someone else means you can't only have good food in the house so it's there as temptation. I found recently I was secretly eating again, like I used to as a child. And I would feel that familiar shame. I realised a couple of weeks ago I can't take my eye off the ball: I will never have a healthy relationship with food. I guess I became complacent when I couldn't eat a lot but now there is nothing stopping me. Having a food diary is making a huge difference to me already, just making me conscious of what I'm consuming. I miss the days when food was something I didn't think about, or I had a fear of.
6) skin removal surgery is fab, and at some point I will get my back and backside done, but don't think it will make you a model. I still have loose skin on my stomach due to the fact I had to have a Fleur de lys surgery as there was SO MUCH SKIN, my legs are still huge and wobbly (much less wobbly but I wouldn't wear a knee length skirt without control tights), my knees are hideous and my arms have huge scars and the huge stretch marks remain. I cover myself up just as much these days as I did before when I'm on holiday.
I just read this back: I hope I don't sound too negative!! I'm just giving you my update. No doubt wls was the best thing I ever did. It changed my life and gave me a life I never thought I would be able to have! I never really figured out the reasons I got so big. Evidently they are still there as I've spent six months stuffing my face and now I'm on an official diet, but I don't feel like a damaged soul or anything so I'm pretty fine with it. I just need to not do it!
I just thought you might not get these types of updates very often so I thought I'd pop in and drop a line.
Take care everyone!
In 2015 I had a RNY bypass. My thread is here if anyone fancies a read!
By mid 2016 I had lost about 15 stone, I had started a new relationship and quit my job to start a new life back home in a different county.
In 2017 I had my surgeries on my skin, and in 2018 I rejoined society, got a new job, moved in with the boy and my team was fiercely competitive and obsessed with their weight so they kept me on track. I even joined a gym and learnt how to ride a bike! (I hate it lol.) I still crash dieted when I was going on holiday and I still would never wear a swimming costume in public or shorts or a sleeveless top due to the scars and stretch marks.
In October 2019 I got a new job an hour's drive away. I used to walk 15m to work every day and now I drive everywhere. I drive and sit. And I eat and I drink. I get home too late to have any energy to do any exercise, and also I hate it. And in the past six months my weight has been creeping up! I was feeling actually really unhappy about it, or I should say I AM feeling unhappy about it. But last week I joined slimming world online and in feeling so much better about being in control again.
I have 2 stone to lose to get back to my lightest ever, but I want to push that further. The boy weighs 10 1/2 stone and it's still my life goal to weigh less than him!! And he is about 2.5 stone away at the moment.
While I was reading up on slimming world I was reading articles on the water weight, the head hunger, the stalls and it made me remember this forum. I thought I'd give an update on the weight story since my surgeries.
1) my hair did not grow back. I have to use hair fibres every time I wash it now as so much scalp is visible
2) I can eat as much as a regular person, easily. I made the decision to try and stretch my pouch so that I can enjoy eating with others and wouldn't feel any different to them. Apart from my parents and my best friend, no one knows I had wls
3) my stomach still doesn't rumble when I'm hungry (yay!)
4) I do feel hungry but not as much at all, and only when I haven't eaten in hours
5) if left to my own devices (e.g. working from home in lockdown) I will eat bad things constantly. And I find as I'm eating one thing I'm already looking forward to eating the next thing so I eat it as quickly as possible. Living with someone else means you can't only have good food in the house so it's there as temptation. I found recently I was secretly eating again, like I used to as a child. And I would feel that familiar shame. I realised a couple of weeks ago I can't take my eye off the ball: I will never have a healthy relationship with food. I guess I became complacent when I couldn't eat a lot but now there is nothing stopping me. Having a food diary is making a huge difference to me already, just making me conscious of what I'm consuming. I miss the days when food was something I didn't think about, or I had a fear of.
6) skin removal surgery is fab, and at some point I will get my back and backside done, but don't think it will make you a model. I still have loose skin on my stomach due to the fact I had to have a Fleur de lys surgery as there was SO MUCH SKIN, my legs are still huge and wobbly (much less wobbly but I wouldn't wear a knee length skirt without control tights), my knees are hideous and my arms have huge scars and the huge stretch marks remain. I cover myself up just as much these days as I did before when I'm on holiday.
I just read this back: I hope I don't sound too negative!! I'm just giving you my update. No doubt wls was the best thing I ever did. It changed my life and gave me a life I never thought I would be able to have! I never really figured out the reasons I got so big. Evidently they are still there as I've spent six months stuffing my face and now I'm on an official diet, but I don't feel like a damaged soul or anything so I'm pretty fine with it. I just need to not do it!
I just thought you might not get these types of updates very often so I thought I'd pop in and drop a line.
Take care everyone!
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