RoseA
New Member
I've written before, about how my journey to WLS was a bit quick initially. When my original surgery date was cancelled I just wasn't ready and it was therefore a blessing. Back on the waiting list, and in the slow lane, I had time to prepare properly and I have finally come to the point where I think I can say I am ready. The interesting thing is, I thought I'd achieved that a couple of months ago, but I realised today that wasn't the case at all. The difference is between being head ready - and heart ready.
A couple of months ago I finally felt mentally ready and I thought that was it. I've never had that sense of yearning that some of you have obviously experienced. When I had to turn down another date because of a holiday I was disappointed... but not devastated. That didn't overly concern me - I put it down to the fact that am naturally phlegmatic and rarely experience extreme emotions, at either end of the scale.
I now realise that although I was head ready... I wasn't heart ready. Intellectual acceptance is not the same as emotional acceptance. Today I finally realised that I really want this now ! Yes... REALLY !! Of course I'm apprehensive, scared sometimes... but I just want to get on with it now... and would genuinely be devastated if it was postponed or even cancelled.
Roll on 20 May...
Rose
A couple of months ago I finally felt mentally ready and I thought that was it. I've never had that sense of yearning that some of you have obviously experienced. When I had to turn down another date because of a holiday I was disappointed... but not devastated. That didn't overly concern me - I put it down to the fact that am naturally phlegmatic and rarely experience extreme emotions, at either end of the scale.
I now realise that although I was head ready... I wasn't heart ready. Intellectual acceptance is not the same as emotional acceptance. Today I finally realised that I really want this now ! Yes... REALLY !! Of course I'm apprehensive, scared sometimes... but I just want to get on with it now... and would genuinely be devastated if it was postponed or even cancelled.
Roll on 20 May...
Rose