My passport form will be winging it's way to the office by tomorrow lunch time at the latest. Have to keep my fingers crossed that nothing delays it. Then I will ring Deborah or Michael at Bosmetic Bliss when I get passport back and tell them ok I'm ready for action now lol.
I said on my other diary that I had been waiting for a sign whether I was doing the right thing and I realise now I've already had the sign. About 6 mos ago I dreamt I saw a man I know (who in real life was waiting on a triple heart bypass for yrs but couldnt get it cos of his weight) in a hospital waiting room and he told me he'd lost 6st with a bypass and I hadn't recognised him. I took this to mean if I don't have surgery to get the weight off I will head the same way. Also took it that surgery will be a positive step in the right direction. Writing this has just reminded me of that, so once I get my passport there'll be no stopping me.
All being well, I could be heading off for vsg within about 8-10 weeks so I should make a start on my pre-op diet.
No more excuses, I will be like the Nike slogan and just do it!
I need to prioritise my health above everything else. My diabetes is poorly controlled because I keep on over-indulging on white carbs suchas pasta, bread, potatoes...never mind chinese, kebabs, Pringles, crisps, chocolate, biscuits and cakes. And why? Food addiction!
A sane person would say ok I am diabetic now (when they were diagnosed) I need to make sure I look after my health, eat the right things, exercise...what did I do
? Nothing! I buried my head in the sand hoping it'd all go away.
Well it's time to get out of 'ostrich mode' and get my priorities straight, stop messing around with my health. I am 28 next Weds and I feel 68 and it's all to do with the crappy food (its actually not even food) I am putting into my body. There's a life out there to be lived and I am just existing in misery.
So no more messing around, I am going to lower my weight as much as I can between now and surgery and go and get a life for myself. I didn't mean to ramble on so much when I started but it's been theraputic I reckon lol.