BandedHuns Mad Fat Diary

[BandedHun]

NEW BATTLE STARTS
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So having lost 5st 6lbs it's now the maintenance/ last few 3lbs to go. The reason I talk about the three pounds to go is I want the half stone leeway on the 11st bracket, I want to stay in the 10s and think that 10:10 is too close to that bracket of 11st .... So trying to take the pressure off and maintain has created a self destruct button in my mind. I've started m late night crap eating again!!! So angry ! Not hungry just wanting to eat rubbish again! So I'm having to write this all down in order that the self destruct button doesn't actually blow up in full effect. This is what I do all the time. Get the weight down and then start letting the junk back in. Now I need to be good coz my OH and daugther need to be healthier.

So starting today I'm back on sensible plan. Eating food I fancy and like in moderation. Making home made burger and chips tonight for tea, I've had three days now of chocolate and crisps and I feel so lethargic. A proper blow out. Just need to get control. I've chopped up two massive melons , a honeydew and watermelon ... So got nice watery treats available ready, loads of yoghurts , I just need to get my head in a good place. Maintain R is so hard. So hard. I feel lost! :-(

 

[WeightlossDreamer]

I'm back on track too! Had a full weekend of binging not good and far from good eating last week! Anyway managed one day with no cox so far so we can do it together fingers crossed x

 

[BandedHun]

I'm back on track too! Had a full weekend of binging not good and far from good eating last week! Anyway managed one day with no cox so far so we can do it together fingers crossed x

Ahhh dreamer thank god someone else out there understands, it's so easy to be on the weight loss journey getting highs from the scales and clothes etc... But trying to stay that way without the goal etc ... It's madness.

How did u get thru the first day? Xxx

 

[Xenia67]

Banded, I have faith in you to get back on track as you have done so well, how powerful the mind can be!

 

[BandedHun]

Banded, I have faith in you to get back on track as you have done so well, how powerful the mind can be!

Thanks xenia67.

It's hard just everything kinda coming to an end. I've kinda lost myself. This colds taken its toll.

Changed dinner tonight... Again to spagetti Bolognaise, nice and soft and lush in a cold rainy day x x

 

[tweetybaby]

God its hard sometimes. Hormonal cravings i have found tough. You wont get back there that i am sure, but just proves willpower is still required and its no quick fix xx

 

[kurstywursty]

Banded and Dreamer...you guys rock! Glad your back on track

 

[BandedHun]

Newest pictures -
Just to try get some motivation.... Not happy with the front shots as I don't have a size 10 blsck top and this top isn't very flattering :-( still I can see a massive difference

 

[BandedHun]

Front shot

 

[WeightlossDreamer]

I did good two days down now and I've stuck within my limits x how's your day been? X x

 

[WeightlossDreamer]

You can see such a big difference x

 

[BandedHun]

Struggled all day just wanting junk and my bands tightened right up too. Hence why I did pictures so I kept motivated. Gonna ring THG tomorrow and rest day , do school run, get back into bed and just drink water all day and suck ice, try and let it loosen off, it was like this last month after TOTM :-( and this month I've hD this heavy cold too..,. I find when u get extreme restriction weight loss stops and u crave all bad stuff coz you just can't eat anything healthy. Dreamer I just can't get anything in today :-( Xxx

 

[Crystalrainbow]

Its because the goals have gone, the desire and drive to achieve the goals are disappearing, of course i know you still have your 3lb to go but your so close and that drive is waining. The brain is a funny thing, my drive has wained with little movement on the scales lately.... we need to set ourselves goals bit like Dreamers smart goals to keep us on track rather than the reward of achieving our goals ie the scales the clothes etc its a bit like everyday life, we get married look forward to the honeymoon, then the house buying, the filling it with stuff, then the baby..... we are constantly striving and moving forwards......... so what happens we we hit target??? where DO we go from there? Small goals i guess, things to move us onwards.......... gl with it hunni i know you can you've done so well till now x x x x

 

[WeightlossDreamer]

I think crystal is right Hun! X x
As for your restriction that's no good, hope it's eased a bit today maybe you have a sensitive band like me? X x

 

[BandedHun]

Morning girls- 10:9 today,
Restriction is better today just going to keep it light I don't like the thought of hurting my band. Think my colds really effecting my throat too.

I think you are right crystal. I need to keep it real and set these goals that are for longevity. So I'm thinking 366 days time I'm meant to be getting married , so to still sit at 10:7 for the wedding maybe tone up a bit would be great. I've also got the stress with changing careers still occurring. Looking at resigning December1st or 31st depending when I can hold on to really. Then it's the start of the new me in 2015 . So wedding on 16/10/2015 . It's my 8 year anniversary tomorrow too , hence us getting married on our 9th anniversary .... I think today I will see and sort my personal goals it that are not weight related xxxx thanks everyone. Xxxx

 

[SingerMo]

Morning girls- 10:9 today, Restriction is better today just going to keep it light I don't like the thought of hurting my band. Think my colds really effecting my throat too. I think you are right crystal. I need to keep it real and set these goals that are for longevity. So I'm thinking 366 days time I'm meant to be getting married , so to still sit at 10:7 for the wedding maybe tone up a bit would be great. I've also got the stress with changing careers still occurring. Looking at resigning December1st or 31st depending when I can hold on to really. Then it's the start of the new me in 2015 . So wedding on 16/10/2015 . It's my 8 year anniversary tomorrow too , hence us getting married on our 9th anniversary .... I think today I will see and sort my personal goals it that are not weight related xxxx thanks everyone. Xxxx

Ooh looking forward to hearing you're life goals. 1 year to your wedding and you get to wear your dream dress (it's all about the dress lol)
Your pics are amazing if it wasn't for your tattoo you would be unrecognisable to me.
Glad you're feeling a bit better and hope THG sorts you out.
2lbs to go - you legend :0)

 

[Xenia67]

God you really can see the success you have had, well done you. Congratulations on the wedding, just think of the choice of outfits you will have now!

 

[Mrs Q]

Bandedhun,u look fantastic u have an amazing figure by the way x

 

[kurstywursty]

What a wonderful goal to work to...maintenance and a wedding...made up for you Banded xxx

 

[WeightlossDreamer]

Better start looking for dresses now then! X x