WeightlossDreamer
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Thank you Hun x x
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BandedHuns Mad Fat Diary
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BandedHun
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God I'm struggling with wanting food! What the hell is wrong with me... I don't know if I'm genuinely hungry or I'm just missing the habit...
The need to put something in my mouth ( oioi ) just feel empty by 9-10pm and I'm wondering if it's because I'm genuinely hungry or it's healing grumbles... I just am so aware my portions are next to nothing now and the calories are so under.
I am struggling to fall asleep too ( but then it could be because I have so much going on in my life too .... Hummmmmmm)
The need to put something in my mouth ( oioi ) just feel empty by 9-10pm and I'm wondering if it's because I'm genuinely hungry or it's healing grumbles... I just am so aware my portions are next to nothing now and the calories are so under.
I am struggling to fall asleep too ( but then it could be because I have so much going on in my life too .... Hummmmmmm)
Banderbird
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You're doing really well! Try having a hot chocolate milk drink at night like an Options. It really helps.
Scars are looking good, but I'd maybe get that sightly open one looked at, you want it to heal neatly.
Your port is definitely the biggest wound, the one bang in the middle. If you gently feel slightly below it, you might be able to feel your port under the skin. Very weird!
Not long til liquids are over and it's onto mushies, you will not believe how good food tastes then, lol.
Scars are looking good, but I'd maybe get that sightly open one looked at, you want it to heal neatly.
Your port is definitely the biggest wound, the one bang in the middle. If you gently feel slightly below it, you might be able to feel your port under the skin. Very weird!
Not long til liquids are over and it's onto mushies, you will not believe how good food tastes then, lol.
BandedHun
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Oh banderbird, I totally understand that now, appreciate how good food is, that it's not to be abused. Crazy huh. But I knew I needed this effect.
Was just telling one if the other threads on here about OA ( overeaters anonymous ) Helped me so much with understanding the food addiction and causes and effects it brought into my life. I use it in conjunction with the band now. I use the band to physically stop me being able to binge. The mental emotional side though is going to be with me for life. So I use OA for that. So I'm looking forward to tasting food that's the fuel not the abuse substance I became do heavily relied upon.
Sleep well peeps.... Tomorrow is a new day ;-)
BandedHun
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DAY 6 - in the post op house....
Slept lightly as I felt extreme hunger to the point I think it brought insomnia. However managed to sleep by midnight, didn't want to wake up. The scars have been open to the elements for 24 hours they are slightly bruised as per the attached photos but the wounds still scabby.
I've decided to go back next Friday to work so five another couple if extra days before the 2 hour commute.
Nothing really to report on today. Eating well. Not so light headed today. No real pains aches. ( other than the other his becoming increasingly annoying with his constant swipes and digs either regarding money or the fact I hardly eat ) I get the feeling I might end up as one of these people who's relationship falls apart when I'm finally happy in myself because he is dragging me down! Urghhh
Anyway, a Friday night alone would normally mean binge night but no such thing tonight. No no! So I'm a little nervous. But I'm overcoming emotional hurdles I'd put in my life each day since the band was put in place .
Slept lightly as I felt extreme hunger to the point I think it brought insomnia. However managed to sleep by midnight, didn't want to wake up. The scars have been open to the elements for 24 hours they are slightly bruised as per the attached photos but the wounds still scabby.
I've decided to go back next Friday to work so five another couple if extra days before the 2 hour commute.
Nothing really to report on today. Eating well. Not so light headed today. No real pains aches. ( other than the other his becoming increasingly annoying with his constant swipes and digs either regarding money or the fact I hardly eat ) I get the feeling I might end up as one of these people who's relationship falls apart when I'm finally happy in myself because he is dragging me down! Urghhh
Anyway, a Friday night alone would normally mean binge night but no such thing tonight. No no! So I'm a little nervous. But I'm overcoming emotional hurdles I'd put in my life each day since the band was put in place .
WeightlossDreamer
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Your strength is amazing! Well done Hun x
MrsDuck
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I think you're doing great chick. Big thumbs up from me!
Know what you mean about the unsupportive partners.. it took me a week or so to convince my other half that I was going to be OK. After he'd got over the fact that I was going to live, he started talking money and how much it was costing and was it worth it. We talked and talked, and talked some more and EVENTUALLY he said "what happens if you get all thin, and leave me" then it hit home. He wasn't bothered about all the silly questions he keeps asking me, he's bothered that I'm going to loose this weight, get my confidence back and go on a big pulling mission - I think not. He stuck by me at my biggest - he married me at my biggest, I definitely know he's not bothered about my looks, so he's a keeper in my mind. What I was getting to with you is maybe your OH is worried you're going to do the same? Loose lots of weight, get all confident and find some one new?
Keep up the good work! x
Know what you mean about the unsupportive partners.. it took me a week or so to convince my other half that I was going to be OK. After he'd got over the fact that I was going to live, he started talking money and how much it was costing and was it worth it. We talked and talked, and talked some more and EVENTUALLY he said "what happens if you get all thin, and leave me" then it hit home. He wasn't bothered about all the silly questions he keeps asking me, he's bothered that I'm going to loose this weight, get my confidence back and go on a big pulling mission - I think not. He stuck by me at my biggest - he married me at my biggest, I definitely know he's not bothered about my looks, so he's a keeper in my mind. What I was getting to with you is maybe your OH is worried you're going to do the same? Loose lots of weight, get all confident and find some one new?
Keep up the good work! x
BandedHun
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He's been with me thru size 10 and size 20 ( well I hide in size 20 but probably more size 18) so there's no worry there I think it's just his personalty . He digs at me for everything. I treated myself to a Louis Vuitton handbag with all my overtime I worked for and I haven't brought one in the whole time id been with him, so £800 in 8 years ... Not bad and he digs at me for that. At the time was all encouraging me to buy it then weeks later... " dig dig dig" oh well not to winge. We are under a lot if pressure at the moment and just getting under each others skin.
I struggle with the head food at the mo. Wanting to eat, but like they say 21 days to form a habit 21 days to break it... So far it's two weeks.... I will get there. I have been feeling like I'm being naughty but I'm still loosing a 1lb a day. Still only consuming 500-600kcal. But today I didn't want soup!!!! Noooooo I had cold custard.... Went down a treat. Measured out 200kcal worth so same calories as my can of soup.
I'm curious because I don't feel like there's a band there.... Maybe they didn't put one in? Maybe.... They just thought ahhh she can do it we will just pretend... Nah! They wouldn't have done that!?? But seriously I cans willow easily I do get full up on 3/4 can of soup. 200ml of custard. A yoghurt in the morning, my choc mousse in the evening... So there is some restriction caused by my little friend.
On another subject, I opened my band bix today and read how to fit it... Now I read the instructions on port use aswell and it states that the first port use has to be under radiology to access the port correctly ... Thus ensuring that no leaks are caused with the penetration of the needle to fill and correct fluid in put. Now I'm concerned because when I paid for the surgery it was under X-ray the first fill, now THG have put a paper in the pack saying it doesn't need to be done under X-ray... I'm not happy with this snd im going to complain... Yes! I want to know my first full is in the right position .. Without a X-ray it's a guessing game and I'm thinking this is where a lot of the later complications are coming with the bands being fitted in this country, it just doesn't happen often in the states, success rates are higher there because their insurances pay for all the aftercare, here it's a money making scheme for a cheap as possible... So watch this space with me complaining enough to get my first full under X-ray to assure myself it's fine correctly! ( stickler for the rules)
Today's food -
Yoghurt and water
Chicken Soup water
2 cups of tea
200ml custard
Mousse and cream
A lindor suck if choc ... ( so friggin naughty but I'm loosing a pound a day ... Just wanted a taste)
So now I'm 14:10 .... See what tomorrow brings on my one week anniversary of my banded life... Wow ... Where does the week go. I'll be night duty this time next week ... Meh!!!!
I struggle with the head food at the mo. Wanting to eat, but like they say 21 days to form a habit 21 days to break it... So far it's two weeks.... I will get there. I have been feeling like I'm being naughty but I'm still loosing a 1lb a day. Still only consuming 500-600kcal. But today I didn't want soup!!!! Noooooo I had cold custard.... Went down a treat. Measured out 200kcal worth so same calories as my can of soup.
I'm curious because I don't feel like there's a band there.... Maybe they didn't put one in? Maybe.... They just thought ahhh she can do it we will just pretend... Nah! They wouldn't have done that!?? But seriously I cans willow easily I do get full up on 3/4 can of soup. 200ml of custard. A yoghurt in the morning, my choc mousse in the evening... So there is some restriction caused by my little friend.
On another subject, I opened my band bix today and read how to fit it... Now I read the instructions on port use aswell and it states that the first port use has to be under radiology to access the port correctly ... Thus ensuring that no leaks are caused with the penetration of the needle to fill and correct fluid in put. Now I'm concerned because when I paid for the surgery it was under X-ray the first fill, now THG have put a paper in the pack saying it doesn't need to be done under X-ray... I'm not happy with this snd im going to complain... Yes! I want to know my first full is in the right position .. Without a X-ray it's a guessing game and I'm thinking this is where a lot of the later complications are coming with the bands being fitted in this country, it just doesn't happen often in the states, success rates are higher there because their insurances pay for all the aftercare, here it's a money making scheme for a cheap as possible... So watch this space with me complaining enough to get my first full under X-ray to assure myself it's fine correctly! ( stickler for the rules)
Today's food -
Yoghurt and water
Chicken Soup water
2 cups of tea
200ml custard
Mousse and cream
A lindor suck if choc ... ( so friggin naughty but I'm loosing a pound a day ... Just wanted a taste)
So now I'm 14:10 .... See what tomorrow brings on my one week anniversary of my banded life... Wow ... Where does the week go. I'll be night duty this time next week ... Meh!!!!
emmahc1975
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I still sometimes wonder if i _really_ have a band . . . . . . Until you don't chew enough or eat too fast! Then you know!
WeightlossDreamer
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I had my first fill under x ray and I can tell you it was such a relief. If you want it doing that way Hun push for it! If you can't feel the band I'm guessing your insides have healed really well! It's not such a bad thing to not feel it, better than being uncomfy I think x x
emmahc1975
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Its so easy to forget! 1 st time i did it was with a single slice of ham. Didn't even mean to eat the ham!
BandedHun
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Ahhh thanks dreamer, I hope they are healing and yes I'm going to push for it ... Just because I can't see how they can adequately fill if they can't see the port position and the instruction clearly say to correctly fill it has to be under X-ray to check the needle position .... Hummmmm
Anyway mrs. Good luck with everything... Can't wait to hear your new chapters..... :-D
Anyway mrs. Good luck with everything... Can't wait to hear your new chapters..... :-D
BandedHun
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God I bet ill be like that!!! I'm craving grilled chicken Sooo bad xxx
flutterby1966
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Bandedhun, most providers nowadays don't do the first fill under X-ray any longer. THG did mine but I was one of the last and that was almost three years ago and it wasn't at Dolan but outsourced to a spire hospital. The doctors or surgeons who fit the band don't generally do the fills, its a specialist nurse who fills c 4-6 people an hour. So imagine how many people they get through in a day/week/month/year. They mostly are very good at what they do, and they do it by feel/experience...so I am sure you will be in very safe hands. Worry/stress could cause your band to tighten, so try to relax 
xxx
xxx
BandedHun
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Ahhh thanks flutterby! I'm just this perfectionist head. Reading the instructions make me think, Y do they say do it under X-ray abc then not? Surely this is to have a record of port position ( then I start thinking no wonder lots have issues with the band in this country - grrrr ) makes me mad.
Anyway, today is my ONE WEEK surgivsary . So this time last week I was on my own in my little room ( annoyed at the lateness and lake of communication ) waiting to have my little silicone friend inserted around my tummy. To say it's been a ride is an understatement. It's been a god week all in all. Two evenings I've managed to not binge on anything whilst suffering extreme loneliness mixed in with a bottle of boredom. So that is a great success for me. Weeks off work and evenings feeling like tat have less me to the food. This week has not. Which is a super start.
A week of listening to noises I never knew my tummy could make! Weird.... And when it rumbles it's like an earthquake so loud. Wind pain - I've experienced for the first time on my life... Ouchhhh! Windeze- I've eaten for the first time in my life (chew yum chew yum) and then weight loss which I haven't experienced in a very long time -
start of journey 102kg (16st). BMI 33.1
Start of operation 99kg (15st 5.5lb)
End of week one 93kg (14st 9lb) BMI 30.8
So a great first week. I'm fed up on liquids if I'm honest. I'm ready for thicker stuff so going to ring provider as suggested my fellow banders and see if I can start introducing musher foods around day 10.
Still only consuming around 600kcal a day. I'm sure it will rise once the munching starts ...
Anyway here's to a beautiful sunny day. And another successful week x x x x
Anyway, today is my ONE WEEK surgivsary . So this time last week I was on my own in my little room ( annoyed at the lateness and lake of communication ) waiting to have my little silicone friend inserted around my tummy. To say it's been a ride is an understatement. It's been a god week all in all. Two evenings I've managed to not binge on anything whilst suffering extreme loneliness mixed in with a bottle of boredom. So that is a great success for me. Weeks off work and evenings feeling like tat have less me to the food. This week has not. Which is a super start.
A week of listening to noises I never knew my tummy could make! Weird.... And when it rumbles it's like an earthquake so loud. Wind pain - I've experienced for the first time on my life... Ouchhhh! Windeze- I've eaten for the first time in my life (chew yum chew yum) and then weight loss which I haven't experienced in a very long time -
start of journey 102kg (16st). BMI 33.1
Start of operation 99kg (15st 5.5lb)
End of week one 93kg (14st 9lb) BMI 30.8
So a great first week. I'm fed up on liquids if I'm honest. I'm ready for thicker stuff so going to ring provider as suggested my fellow banders and see if I can start introducing musher foods around day 10.
Still only consuming around 600kcal a day. I'm sure it will rise once the munching starts ...
Anyway here's to a beautiful sunny day. And another successful week x x x x
flutterby1966
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Mushy peas mash and gravy was my first meal. Gorgeous Banded Hun, the port moves. Mine is now 3 inches (shows my age LOL) higher than when i started you will be fine ... Hang on in there .. The weight loss has been great so far, you may have a wee gain as you move back onto solids as your fluid levels balance themselves out again, but give it a couple of weeks you will be feeling better once the side effects of the anaesthetic wear off and you are back on 'normal' food again. Nothing wrong with wanting things to be perfect!!! X
Banded Hun, the port moves. Mine is now 3 inches (shows my age LOL) higher than when i started you will be fine ... Hang on in there .. The weight loss has been great so far, you may have a wee gain as you move back onto solids as your fluid levels balance themselves out again, but give it a couple of weeks you will be feeling better once the side effects of the anaesthetic wear off and you are back on 'normal' food again. Nothing wrong with wanting things to be perfect!!! X
