I have my first consult on Saturday and I am hoping to have my surgery end of November and I have no support from anyone at the moment, not even my hubby and that has made me doubt myself but when I'm laying awake (as I do most nights) fretting about it all going round and round in my head, yes I could lose the five stone that I keep yo-yoing with, and yes, I would keep it off for a bit but, I know it will just creep back on again, well, I say creep, three stone has 'galloped' back on since March! And I do feel poorly, my joints ache, I'm tired all the time and un-enthusiastic and worst of all, my self esteem has plunged so very low, I feel I could crawl under a snakes belly!
None of this is healthy and so at the end of the day, it just has to be the right decision. We had a McDonalds on the way home last night. Not something I normally eat but I fancied it. It was OK but it struck me that this was probably the last time I'd ever be able to eat one of these and I must say, that thought did cheer me up! Hah!
None of us have a crystal ball, who knows how we may all feel five years from now but all I would say is that it is vitally important that whatever WLS we have, we are having it for the right reasons. Not to suit or please anyone else, but because it's what we want.