Good evening all and thanks for all taking so much time and showing so much concern, I'm not used to having so many people caring about me.
I'm feeling much more positive today. When I got on the scales this morning I still had n't lost and I did n't go into melt down.
My best friend came over this morning, as she has done every day that my husband has been at work since I had this op to help look after my baby and we had a good chat and agree with so much you say here. I'm not eating, I'm not drinking so I guess as you say my body is going into shock and holding on to every last bit it can do.
After lots of talks with her we decided that a good thing for me to do was to get the slimfast shakes in the powder form so that I can control how much I take at one time. I'll divide the amount of once shake into 3 drinks and have 6 aday, thats the equivilent of the 2 shakes a day that people with normal eating ability take and I'll have in the evening some vegetables or what ever else takes my fancy in the pureed form.
I also bought some fibre sachets to try to get things moving and I'm taking your advice to stop the iron for a few days and give my body chance to clear its self out.
I drove today with my friend to boots and then to asda, first trip out since my op and really thought I was fine to do it. I was fine around boots, and next door in the Next store as I can never resist a Next store for my baby boy and NEVER come out empty handed. By the time we got half way round asda I'd had it. The trolley had gotten really heavy and I had n't really noticed it and I started getting pain in my side and began to feel nausious and clammy with a huge headache.. that was the point when I realised I'd not eaten anything today nor drunk anything except half a cup of milky coffee this morning. Suffice to say by the time I got home I was in a terrible state and has to abandon my friend down stairs with all 6 of my kids including the baby and get into bed in the dark and try to sleep it off.. oh I had a half a tomato cup a soup so at least I had something inside of me.
I had n't been in bed more than 20 minutes when my hubby came home from work with my 2 sister in laws and on came the light and I had to sit up in bed and act nicely when all I really wanted to tell every one was to go and leave me alone.. my wound was closely inspected and there was more than one ewwwwwww comment. Needless to say hubby says he's taking my car keys to work tomorrow to stop me going out as I was n't meant to be doing anything cause of my scar opening.
Best bit of the day was standing on the scales at boots and seeing I'm 2 stone down. I'm taking the batteries out of my scales and am going to drive to boots once a week and weigh myself first.
Positive steps, no looking back!!!
Alia xxx