im having a real low few days facing the enormity of the work ahead:sigh: for first time in months iv looked at a photo and it reducing me to tears in my head i was looking like i did my first yr post op befor gaining back but the reality is im huge and although iv had good loss this month of 17lbs i got another yr of hard work to not look like a freak which is how im feeling knowing whereever i go im gona be way past the biggest there and i dont know how to get past feeling like this:cry: