I dont know what I weigh at the moment, I am too scared to weigh myself at home and tell the doctors not to tell me. All i know is that my bmi is about 51! I know Ill have to face those dreaded numbers soon but at least then Ill be well on the way to losing the weight. Stay positive - the journey has begun and everyone on here is so kind and supportive. You cant beat yourself up over whats done but think how strong you are to be doing something about it! Good luck xxx