I lost mine aged 16, my brother was 11, dad was 46, and that made me think, every day has to count. and all these years (he died 1983) I still miss him and think of all the things we could have done as adults and stuff, so have a;ways had that mindset. I actually love my job, I manage a probation hostel for high risk offenders, they have to live there after their release from prison, I get murderers, sex offenders, firearms, serious domestic abuse, all manner of awful crimes but certainly meet some characters, and every day is different. I', lucky as my team are brilliant, we laugh a lot and are a tight knit team.
I think you spend a lot of time at work so need to enjoy, but I do work to live, not live to work.
squirl - if you're fed up, make a change, look at the results from making the weight loss change
I'm a leap into the unknown and hope it pays off sometimes but it usually does as think subconsciously we think about stuff before taking the leap if not more consciously
Good luck Squirl if you do