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Oh my god, Yorkie - I read your reply post and it was like I'd written it myself.
I started self-harming at 13, but developed eating disorders before then, due to severe bullying at school, (then) undiagnosed learning disabilities and my already larger-than-usual size. Was put on Prozac for years and just left on meds, without any option for counselling. Finally I got some, about 5 years later, which was generally useless and I went from counsellor to counsellor for another 5 years, getting nowhere and solving nothing. I got quite addicted to various things, including food, and felt out of control and hopeless. I got very low and I can honestly say that without my utter gem of a GP I wouldn't be here now. She supported me through my darkest time, helped me get through Uni and a subsequent awful job, and through to where I am now. I'm not "cured" - I'm still on meds and have bad periods (especially atm with the change in seasons :-/) but I haven't cut in almost 2 years now which is the longest I've been clean in about 15 years. And it was a pact I made with myself in the run-up to my surgery.
It was her that suggested WLS to me, after years of dieting and exercising and medication - she said it broke her heart to see just how far I'd come with everything else but still going nowhere on the losing weight front.
I was meant to have a psych evaluation but I think they managed to dig up some old notes from one of my useless counselling sessions years ago, which seemed to do the trick. Luckily, in the past few years I realised that I'd been let down by the mental health provision in my area so many times that it was time to stop looking for an answer with them, and to look for one with me.
I'm still working on it, and I'm not perfect. But I'm a hell of a lot better than I was even last year, and I'll continue to do the best I can, because I'm worth it. And so are you.
If you want to chat with me about anything, please feel free to PM
xxx