thanks bfb, I had arranged care for kids, mum in law had already got her ticket & came up yesterday, I had been on LSD for 3 weeks, & I did cry absolutely broke my heart, I've use up all my annul leave trying to stay away from all the germy blokes at work as they insist on coming into work with d&v and endless colds. Yuck yuck yuck. I don't know what am gonna do with the kids now as they will be back at school, think hubbie is gonna have to leave me in Manchester & come back for me next day. Can't be help I know but gutted all the same xx