Life has been.. busy. When I last posted I had been to various hospital appointments having had a bit of bad news over Christmas. Id received letters further to routine checks advising I had stage 1 cancerous cells, further tests confirmed in January that Im all good to go. So living on the knife edge of worry has ended for now.
Had the results of my ECG recordings and theres no apparent reason for the sudden stopping/starting, seizures, fits, blackouts/collapses and memory loss identified from these tests. I now am in receipt of correspondence advising I now have to have a 24 hour heart recording device fitted into my chest under my skin for upto 18months to get to the bottom of things. Im thrilled.. not the news I wanted but not the news I could have had such as.. you need a tripple heart bypass, open heart surgery etc.. so this is exceptionally good. Whilst I do not revel in the thought of op/procedure number 20 in 2 years (almost 1 every 6 weeks) Its for the greater good and scheme of things.. wow 2 years.. Im 2 years out on the 25th and cant believe it. This time 2 years ago I was filled with excitement for surgery, worried, nervous.. last year.. still reeling from the tumultuous events, couldnt eat or drink properly, angry, sad.. today.. calm. Whilst I dread the surgiversary in some ways I am just thankful for the chance to celebrate the gift I was given. NOT my operation, but the gift or surviving it, combatting the difficulties, trials and tribulations it presented and continues to give me daily.
Things are good. Eating is up and down. I have a couple days where I can eat, several where I cant. Then I can and I cant and so on, but I figure this is just "normal". Work is.. the same, except Im kicking butt everywhere and way I can and Im pretty proud of myself.
Family.. good as ever. Kinda letting go completely of the non stop daily calls to see if Im ok. Finally grown up, living the life I dreamed of and ENJOYING it. Ok it can be tweaked here and there but Ill take it as it is.
Celebrated Valentines day with Adam - our first together and hopefully of many to come. Makes me realise how blessed I am. Every single day I find something else to be thankful for and another reason to keep smiling. Usually they involve him. Cant believe we have been together just under a year now. Scary.. I see how Ive evolved from then, how hes changed, how we work well and I know that with what weve overcome this last year I have a keeper for life. He hasnt done a runner, and thats a good sign! I am one truly lucky woman.
Celebrating my surgiversary by taking the day off work and just relaxing and cleaning out those last few skeletons. I also have the day it all went wrong - march 7th off work so I dont have to be round people and dwelling on things. I don't plan on it, however I get kinda antsy thinking about it.
Couple of new pics.. as theres nothing more to report as such, just hope your all ok and still living the dream
