Well I was at my friends last night so missed this thread going on again. You are so right Emma it is difficult the further out you get, the mind plays tricks, you think you have the upper ha nd then you realise you have put weight on. I was doing so well before Christmas, now all I want todo is eat crap even though I don't enjoy it or eat it in bulk, I still want some of it, especially in this cold weather just want bread and I think that interferes with my toilet issues. I do think some people are scared to post things on here, for fear of a backlash but sometimes you have to admit to be able to leave it behind and move on. It helps to see it in black n white for the mind n body to accept the wrong doing and to be able to correct the actions. I often post things on here that people will not agree with, I used to drink a lot of alcohol before the op then managed to go bout 6 months or so without, now I enjoy a drink again but evrey drop I have is diluted with diet lemonade, both wine and vodka. The amount has been drasticaly reduced, some people never touch it again but I enjoy it socially only drink once a fortnight now. We still need some quality of life and it is for living. SO LIVE IT. I was unfortunate that I didnt find this site till I was bout 7months or more post op so I missed all the early days support.