Ah thanks everyone, I just hope people that are struggling will take on board that sometimes its a real hard struggle but you can get there in the end if you keep on going, lord knows I wanted to throw the towel in so many many times, this time last week I was heartbroken I cried for two days solid. Then I started to look into ways I could get answers to the questions that were going around and around in my head, I have to thank the wonderful Tim at the department of health and the lovely louisa (Mr Ammori's private secretary) as she has acted quickly to sort a date. I only found out at 4.30 this evening that the head of the commissioning panel said I could go ahead at the hospital of my choice and Louisa did not get my message until 9pm so it was action stations...if I can help anyone at all with any directions of where to go and who to complain to I will be available dont hesitate if I can help I will help....xx