Well it's been 12 days since my band and i was feeling great, as many of you are aware we had a sudden death in our family last tuesday, my brother in law suddenly died. I am finding it very difficult and very hungry at the moment, i lost my old friend 12 days ago so now i have to find something to occupy my mind instead of food, but i am really really hungry and struggling. I had a call from heartlands last week asking how i was doing and they told me the minimum to stay on liquid diet is 3 weeks where it should be 4 so i am going to stick to that and then start onto purees. Went to see my sister and nephew today and she offered me a malteser to suck for comfort but i declined and had a slim a soup cup a soup instead, before the band i would have had the packet and it was one of them family packs so i did feel a proud moment although all the time i was there i was crying saying how hungry i am, felt bad in a way crying cause i was hungry and there's my sister sat there thats just lost her husband but she is being very supportive bless her, she has even ordered me soup for the celebration of her husbands life after the funderal and the price of this soup is 13.95,i have told her not to be so silly i will take some in a flask but she insists, i am going to give her friend a call tomorrow morning who is going withher to sort it all out and just tell her to tell the caterers what i have had done and ask them for a reduced price as my sister is adamant she is going to accomodate me and my new eating habit ( bless her ) anyway apart from feeling hungry, very sad, i have just had a lovely chat with Paula and i am hoping to go and see her this week so we can compare bellies and scars. X