hi all, I'm back, been thinking hard about going for the op the last week. Needless to say having the op cancelled the evening before was quite a blow. I found the 2 week milk diet extremely difficult and was counting the days to the op and with not being very good at waiting for things it hit me hard to have it cancelled.
I then decided I was going to cancel the op all together, that it was too drastic and invasive. I can do this alone I decided, but the usual struggles with the diet this week continue as they always have, despite being on a 1,000 calorie deficit I have put on weight!? About as much as I put on when I had a complete blow out the week before the first milk diet. Well yesterday I got as far as phoning my bariatric nurse to cancel and he is on holiday so was expecting a phone call from the surgeon today but missed his called. But since really giving some thought to how overweight I really am (according to my scales 78% of my body is just fat) I am going for the op after all. I will try to get to hold of the surgeon tomorrow and say it's just last minute nerves playing up.
I also think having second thoughts came from trying to take control of the situation in which left me without my op last week.
Anyway, I'm back ready to get focused again. Starting the milk AGAIN on Friday, can't say I'm happy about this, in fact I pretty f*$£ked off about it, did 13.5 days recently and gotta do 14 again now. But I know it will be worth it. I really hope I can cope ok with it second time round, not discouraged about the thoughts of it might be cancelled again.
So my new operation date is now 6th Sept, not great as I NEEDED mid summer as I have no family and friends within 70 miles of where I live and I have 3 children. Luckily me and my separated husband have started seeing each other again, so least I have his support now, which is a god send! My daughter's birthday is on the 7th so will have to make it up to her next year
Right time to catch up with all of your posts now.