Iv finally got round to updating this diary properly!
So...
I went in to Sunderland on Sunday 3rd January. I felt like a terrified small child. I have not been in hospital since childhood and I found the initial experience a bit daunting.
Once I was checked in and prodded for bloods, weighed, measured, and shown around the ward I was left to my own devices.
Tv and reading was my pass time of choice! Tea time...chicken breast and broccoli... and then on to the longest night in history.
The lady in the next bed to me returned from surgery having had the same as I would be and bless her, she looked to be suffering. This terrified the life out of me of course :sigh: I had a last minute worry, was I really doing the right thing...I had coped so well with the LSD could I not continue that myself was my main thought path...I managed to calm myself and pull myself together.
Sleep was difficult so I had a shower at 5am. I am diabetic so I was set up with a drip containing glucose and insulin after my shower and promised sexy surgical stockings and a gown.
I watched tv with so many worries running round my head I could not tell you what I watched. I punctuated this with hailing passing nurses to ask for said socks and gown as time was ticking on and I was due to go to surgery at 11am.
I went to the loo at 10.30 and returned to two strange men moving my bed about... porters... I still did not have a gown or socks, I could not possibly go to theatre now! But with a bit of a comedy sketch with me forcing on the tightest socks ever and the nurse trying to get my drip off, gown on and drip back on, I was ready.
It took me all of my strength to not jump off the bed on the way to the theatres. In my sensible mind I knew this was exactly what I wanted but the fear of surgery did a wonderful job making me absolutely terrified.
So in to the holding room... the anesthetist, knew i was nervous from our chat earlier and he got a lovely med in to me right away and that was all I remember
I remember telling the recovery nurse I felt sick each time she asked how i was so she gave me lots of anti sickness drugs and then I woke again back on the ward.
Pain...not to bad
Cold...Very!
Sleepy...very... for the rest of the night.
I went to the loo for a wee once which was not as bad as I was expecting. I remember my visitors being there and I was chatting but can't really remember much of what was said.
The next day saw much pain from wind but barely no pain from the opp. I could move quite well when I was able to be disconnected from my drip and have a walk round this really helped with my wind. A portable drip stand would have been great but alas there was not one.
That night was difficult. A young girl in the ward with me was taken quite ill with a bleed which was scary. I was fine, just could not get comfortable. If you are having surgery at Sunderland take a pillow because they have a serious shortage!
So... I made it through the night to have to eat my breakfast before they would let me go home. I have never been so scared of a quarter of a weetabix! The cup of tea was slightly daunting too. I managed and was given the green light to come home, this made me panic as they were disconnecting my drip with glucose and insulin in... if i could not eat how would i maintain my sugar levels???
Fortunately I seen a diabetes doctor before leaving and with one final dizzy spell, a couple of panicked nurses and a very worried husband I was set free in to the world.
Home was like heaven!
My progress since arriving home has been amazing. Tiredness kicks in from time to time but I can do most things now just five days past surgery without pain, my sugar levels are fab for the moment and I know I made the right decision!