rachaelh
New Member
i'm finding that although i'm not hungry a lot of old bad habits are starting to creep back in :break_diet:, i'm really ashamed to admit it but i've been eating total rubbish, just in considerably smaller portions than before, although across the course of the day yesterday i managed to eat 3 packets of crisps and a mint aero (had to take tablets, nothing with me at work and only a vending machine available on site) [see there i go again with the bloody excuses!] i seem to be able to eat pretty much anything which was my nightmare scenario, and i'm able to eat a helluva lot more than I thought i'd be able to, i'm never either hungry or full, dont seem to feel restricted or sick and its a constant battle to make sure i dont stuff myself i'm starting to wonder if they actually did anything at all or just opened and closed me back up again!, the WL is still happening but a lot slower than i expected, but then again with the crap i'm eating its no wonder! i was thinking it might be worth going back to ww as i always did well at first there and it might get me back into the swing of things, i was thinking about doing the 5 day pouch test but reading up it says i shouldnt as i'm not far enough out, but i'm terrified i'm throwing away my one chance to beat this demon in me, i've been a bit more cautious today, trying to stick with protein as best i can, been at work all day since 7am so lunch and dinner came from subway, (meatball bowl (lunch) and 2/3rds of a turkey and ham sub with bread taken out of the inside of the bun(dinner)) and i've been filling up on milky coffee and water today to try and keep me away from machines which has been working so far but i think maybe i need the extra support from a wl meeting to get me over this headfook i'm putting myself through, work has been very stressful lately and this week i've worked prob 60 odd hours with another 8 in the morning and i think that might have something to do with it but its still no excuse... what do you all think?:sigh::cry: