Sukay a big thankyou for posting, I thought I'd written it when I first read it! I'm in exactly the same place and am awaiting knee surgery!
I lost 7.5 stone in the first year and put 1 stone back on in the second :-(
I have read and read and read the forums on this site over the last few days to try and get some answers. I think I need to do the 5 day pouch test and STOP eating biscuits and crisps, ( I KNOW this so why is it so difficult to stop)? and stop drinking with meals so I stop washing the food down and stopping the full feeling. I think sometimes we just have to go right back to the beginning, search our soul for the reasons we did this in the first place and start building all over again. SO tomorrow is going to be day 1 of my pouch test and I've even bought myself a kitchen timer so I can set it to go off 1 hour after I've finished eating and not drink until it pings! I also read that sweeteners can cause hunger pangs so no more for me.
I vowed I would NEVER go back to that awful dark place that my weight kept me prisoner in so I have to do this.
So....
Sukay, Poppy, Candie, shazbrad, Julie and Jan sending love, support and some hugs and if you want to form a support group so we can help each other I'm in!