Ahh thanks swizzlestick.
I had another date last night with one of the most well adjusted, intresting, fun guys i have ever met. We have spoken to each other for days on the phone. (in fact my son had gone to bed around midnight the other night when i had been on the phone for abour 2 hrs. He reappeared at 2 am for a drink pointed to his watch and said isnt it time you were in bed
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We met in the town centre and went to a localbar he is very much a gent and could of sat and talked to him all night but there is absolutly no chemistry between us. But again whilst walking back to the car he said that he would willingly go out anytime for a drink or walk with me anytime and asked if we can keep in touch as friends. He really is a lovely guy but not the one.
One thing this dating lark is doing for me is letting me discover who i really am and what i want but more importantly what i dont want. Whilst talking to him the other night we both asked at the same time what we were looking for, i said tell you what dont answere that lets email each other the answere whilst were on the phone and we will both hit the send button together.
my reply
Umm that indescribable something that you will only know what when you find it!!! I know what i dont want, But equally i know i want to feel the same excitement on a second date and future dates as i do on the first when there is that certain chemisty. I will admit that sometimes I wonder if I will stay single just because I'm not willing to settle for anything less than what I'm looking for.
His reply
To be honest I'm not too sure any more lol.
I just want to meet someone that I can feel that certain indescribable something with. I know that I sound a bit of a saddo but looks don't always mean a lot when they don't have a personality to go with it. I think that as we get a little older and wiser we aren't willing to settle for what we would have when we were younger.
I think we probably spent the next 10 mins saying OMG.
We talked about this in depth last night and both sat there laughing saying yep that feelings not there for us. Dont think it ever will be, but a good friend.
Any way moving on im off out again tonight meeting a teacher again he is one of the ones who contacted me last week and we have been in frequent contact via msn all week. Were meeting for a coffee in asda after hes finished school and if we hit it off going for something to eat.
Mr shy also phoned me the other day to see how i was. He asked me if i had any dates lined up and i was honest with him. He was saying that he met someone the other night but she scared him.lol
I have promised him that i will phone him and let him know how these pan out and said i will meet him for a coffee during the week.
I have discovered a different type of confidence in me that i didnt know existed and it really is a road to self discovery.