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I did post this before but it seems to have got lost in the ether. I just wanted to tell my story.
In September 2007, when I weighed 27 stone 3lb, I had a gastric balloon fitted (privately) and was very ill immediately afterwards and as a result lost a lot of weight very quickly. I felt so motivated that despite the effect of the balloon seeming to wear off very quickly I was determined and over 12 months I lost 12 stone.
I then lost my inspiration and struggled for a year to keep the weight off – going up and down and up and down. By summer 2009, I was 20 stone again and I had a fall and broke my foot. At the same time I went back to work after a period of unemployment. I stopped doing any exercise and that combined with being behind a desk all day again led to me just putting it all back on again over a period of a year.
In December 2009, when I weighed 23.5 stone, Dr Ammori agreed to list me for a gastric band. Between then and the time that I got the appointment for the operation, June 2010, I put on a further 3 stone.
I started the pre op in May – which was about 500 cals a day - and in the three weeks I lost 19lb and then in the two weeks immediately after the band - the liquid weeks - I lost a further 13lb. In the next six weeks the rate of loss slowed down to 2lb a week and I was struggling to eat 1000 calories a day. Now in all the years I have dieting (35) I have never lost less than an average of 3lb a week and in the early days of dieting I often lose an average of 4 –5lb. In fact in the twelve months where I lost 12 stone – I lost an average of 4lb a week for the full year.
The hospital dietician said I should be getting around 700 calories a day – focusing on protein first. I had one fill of 2ml and had some restriction at first. Due to illness and cancelled appts I didn’t get any more appts for fills until December last year and I was full of flu then and was unable to go. But more to the point I had given up in July and had slowly put all the weight I had lost back on again bar a few pounds and I couldn’t see point in going.
I felt such a failure – like I had wasted the money the NHS spent on the operation and I was embarrassed to go back. Not least because Mr Ammori tried very hard to persuade me to have the bypass and I was so convinced that because I did well with the balloon I would do well with the band.
So in January I tried again and dieted on 1100 calories a day but hardly lost any weight at all. I also booked in for a fill to try and start using my band as a tool in the way that I should.
I went along in February only to be told after two hours that they couldn't fill it as there was a blockage in the tube. I came home from that appointment and went on a chocolate marathon and I am now back up to nearly my top weight.
I have an appointment with the consultant's team on Thursday and am scared about going because a) I think they will be very disappointed with me and b) they might say the band has to come out.
So that's me.
In September 2007, when I weighed 27 stone 3lb, I had a gastric balloon fitted (privately) and was very ill immediately afterwards and as a result lost a lot of weight very quickly. I felt so motivated that despite the effect of the balloon seeming to wear off very quickly I was determined and over 12 months I lost 12 stone.
I then lost my inspiration and struggled for a year to keep the weight off – going up and down and up and down. By summer 2009, I was 20 stone again and I had a fall and broke my foot. At the same time I went back to work after a period of unemployment. I stopped doing any exercise and that combined with being behind a desk all day again led to me just putting it all back on again over a period of a year.
In December 2009, when I weighed 23.5 stone, Dr Ammori agreed to list me for a gastric band. Between then and the time that I got the appointment for the operation, June 2010, I put on a further 3 stone.
I started the pre op in May – which was about 500 cals a day - and in the three weeks I lost 19lb and then in the two weeks immediately after the band - the liquid weeks - I lost a further 13lb. In the next six weeks the rate of loss slowed down to 2lb a week and I was struggling to eat 1000 calories a day. Now in all the years I have dieting (35) I have never lost less than an average of 3lb a week and in the early days of dieting I often lose an average of 4 –5lb. In fact in the twelve months where I lost 12 stone – I lost an average of 4lb a week for the full year.
The hospital dietician said I should be getting around 700 calories a day – focusing on protein first. I had one fill of 2ml and had some restriction at first. Due to illness and cancelled appts I didn’t get any more appts for fills until December last year and I was full of flu then and was unable to go. But more to the point I had given up in July and had slowly put all the weight I had lost back on again bar a few pounds and I couldn’t see point in going.
I felt such a failure – like I had wasted the money the NHS spent on the operation and I was embarrassed to go back. Not least because Mr Ammori tried very hard to persuade me to have the bypass and I was so convinced that because I did well with the balloon I would do well with the band.
So in January I tried again and dieted on 1100 calories a day but hardly lost any weight at all. I also booked in for a fill to try and start using my band as a tool in the way that I should.
I went along in February only to be told after two hours that they couldn't fill it as there was a blockage in the tube. I came home from that appointment and went on a chocolate marathon and I am now back up to nearly my top weight.
I have an appointment with the consultant's team on Thursday and am scared about going because a) I think they will be very disappointed with me and b) they might say the band has to come out.
So that's me.
