A Chance to Start Again

[OkieGirl]

Week 5: -2lbs

I have now lost a stone! Really super pleased!

Weird question though, since I've stared on the milk diet, I've been basically watching food porn. Especially vintage food porn recipes. It doesn't trigger me, it doesn't make me feel hungry or want to raid the kitchen. Maybe there's something about watching people enjoy these things and I get a fix vicariously. No idea. It's weird.

 

[Bling Babe]

Well done, you are amazing for choosing to do it for this long, not sure what to say about the food porn but if it works for you ...... xx

 

[OkieGirl]

Week 6: -2lbs

I'm now down 1st 2lbs and only 4lbs away from my target! It's kind of weird. On one hand I know that 16lbs is just a drop in the ocean compared to what I need to lose but I'm seeing the difference already. Take my profile pic for example. My face has slimmed down considerably already and my double chin is nearly gone. Like, I have to pull one of those pretty girl ugly faces (this is a thing, promise, google it for a giggle!) to really make it obvious. Also I'm finding some chair with arms more manageable now, which is pretty awesome. They're still snug, but not painfully so!

 

[Maria61]

Week 6: -2lbs

I'm now down 1st 2lbs and only 4lbs away from my target! It's kind of weird. On one hand I know that 16lbs is just a drop in the ocean compared to what I need to lose but I'm seeing the difference already. Take my profile pic for example. My face has slimmed down considerably already and my double chin is nearly gone. Like, I have to pull one of those pretty girl ugly faces (this is a thing, promise, google it for a giggle!) to really make it obvious. Also I'm finding some chair with arms more manageable now, which is pretty awesome. They're still snug, but not painfully so!

Well done xx

 

[_Victoria_]

Congrats @OkieGirl it sounds like you're doing great!
i TOTALLY get what you mean about the food porn. When i was on liquids i was insisting my sister leave food shows on the TV because i wanted to look at food and watch people enjoy it even if i couldn't. Kinda like living through them lol it's weird. Everyone in my family has been stepping really lightly around me, not wanting to eat food around me and all that stuff and im sitting there like "buy a doughnut, let me watch you eat it!" and they refuse and think i'm weird haha

 

[OkieGirl]

Congrats @OkieGirl it sounds like you're doing great!
i TOTALLY get what you mean about the food porn. When i was on liquids i was insisting my sister leave food shows on the TV because i wanted to look at food and watch people enjoy it even if i couldn't. Kinda like living through them lol it's weird. Everyone in my family has been stepping really lightly around me, not wanting to eat food around me and all that stuff and im sitting there like "buy a doughnut, let me watch you eat it!" and they refuse and think i'm weird haha

If anything, people walking on eggshells around me is irksome. This weekend we had a quiz evening at my church and they served up baked potatoes with different things to go with it like chilli, tuna, etc. Then, everyone brought drinks and snacks/candy to share around the table. Everyone kept apologizing to me and stuff. I didn't feel deprived or anything, I was quite happy sitting there enjoying the evening, but people seem to find it hard to believe that it really doesn't bother me.

 

[_Victoria_]

If anything, people walking on eggshells around me is irksome. This weekend we had a quiz evening at my church and they served up baked potatoes with different things to go with it like chilli, tuna, etc. Then, everyone brought drinks and snacks/candy to share around the table. Everyone kept apologizing to me and stuff. I didn't feel deprived or anything, I was quite happy sitting there enjoying the evening, but people seem to find it hard to believe that it really doesn't bother me.

Exactly!! It's like people are pushing their guilt onto you. My mom doesn't eat anything without saying sorry to me first. My one sister is the same too. And i know they're coming from a good place but it makes me feel like i'm making them feel bad and if they didn't say anything i wouldn't think twice about it. My mom told me after a week of me being on liquids that she wouldn't cook things she thought i might like the smell of because she didn't want to "tease" me. I had to practically force her to eat something. It's so strange. And there's always going to be temptation. We cant't go through our lives with people hiding good food from us. lol

 

[OkieGirl]

Ok y'all, this weather can do one now. I've completely come off the rails a couple days this week which annoys me considering that I literally was knocking on the door of my 20lb goal. The cold and the snow makes me want to comfort eat and the fact that everyone in my household is out of their routine (my kids haven't been to school since Wednesday and my husband has worked from home since Tuesday) hasn't helped either. One morning I purposely fixed and joined in a big brekkie and later that day I made a beef stew. And I had beef stew for my lunch the next day. And I've returned to grazing when I'm in the kitchen. Hormones haven't helped either and I've let them dictate to me as well.

I will be relieved to go on Tuesday and learn what they want me to do next because I think part of why I've fallen apart so badly over the last few days is boredom. I still like milk, believe it or not, but I am so ready for variety. While I haven't made great choices... my goodness did that breakfast and that beef stew taste fantastic! I had lost 19lbs but when I weighed yesterday morning, I'd gained three so I'm 4lbs away again from my target. Although I am wondering if some of that is water weight as well.

Grr... Live and learn, I suppose. Over the next three days I will be particularly mindful of what I'm doing and stick like glue to the milk. I had hoped to have had the 20lbs off by the time I went back because I'm so desperate for them to see that I mean business, but I know that I have put a lot of pressure on myself and need to remember that the whole of tier 3 is six months (although I suspect if it's six months NHS-time it'll probably be more than a year. ) and I've got time to get to where I need to be.

 

[Maria61]

Ok y'all, this weather can do one now. I've completely come off the rails a couple days this week which annoys me considering that I literally was knocking on the door of my 20lb goal. The cold and the snow makes me want to comfort eat and the fact that everyone in my household is out of their routine (my kids haven't been to school since Wednesday and my husband has worked from home since Tuesday) hasn't helped either. One morning I purposely fixed and joined in a big brekkie and later that day I made a beef stew. And I had beef stew for my lunch the next day. And I've returned to grazing when I'm in the kitchen. Hormones haven't helped either and I've let them dictate to me as well.

I will be relieved to go on Tuesday and learn what they want me to do next because I think part of why I've fallen apart so badly over the last few days is boredom. I still like milk, believe it or not, but I am so ready for variety. While I haven't made great choices... my goodness did that breakfast and that beef stew taste fantastic! I had lost 19lbs but when I weighed yesterday morning, I'd gained three so I'm 4lbs away again from my target. Although I am wondering if some of that is water weight as well.

Grr... Live and learn, I suppose. Over the next three days I will be particularly mindful of what I'm doing and stick like glue to the milk. I had hoped to have had the 20lbs off by the time I went back because I'm so desperate for them to see that I mean business, but I know that I have put a lot of pressure on myself and need to remember that the whole of tier 3 is six months (although I suspect if it's six months NHS-time it'll probably be more than a year. ) and I've got time to get to where I need to be.

I am sure you will be fine on Tuesday and I wish you lots of luck xx

 

[Bling Babe]

Ok y'all, this weather can do one now. I've completely come off the rails a couple days this week which annoys me considering that I literally was knocking on the door of my 20lb goal. The cold and the snow makes me want to comfort eat and the fact that everyone in my household is out of their routine (my kids haven't been to school since Wednesday and my husband has worked from home since Tuesday) hasn't helped either. One morning I purposely fixed and joined in a big brekkie and later that day I made a beef stew. And I had beef stew for my lunch the next day. And I've returned to grazing when I'm in the kitchen. Hormones haven't helped either and I've let them dictate to me as well.

I will be relieved to go on Tuesday and learn what they want me to do next because I think part of why I've fallen apart so badly over the last few days is boredom. I still like milk, believe it or not, but I am so ready for variety. While I haven't made great choices... my goodness did that breakfast and that beef stew taste fantastic! I had lost 19lbs but when I weighed yesterday morning, I'd gained three so I'm 4lbs away again from my target. Although I am wondering if some of that is water weight as well.

Grr... Live and learn, I suppose. Over the next three days I will be particularly mindful of what I'm doing and stick like glue to the milk. I had hoped to have had the 20lbs off by the time I went back because I'm so desperate for them to see that I mean business, but I know that I have put a lot of pressure on myself and need to remember that the whole of tier 3 is six months (although I suspect if it's six months NHS-time it'll probably be more than a year. ) and I've got time to get to where I need to be.[/QUOTEi completely admire you for doing so well so please don’t beat yourself up about a little slip up, you’ve stuck with the milk much longer than you needed to so don’t worry and good luck xxx

 

[Ian2Big]

hi @OkieGirl
Stick with it till Tuesday, you will be fine. I am L&D on Tuesday too(3pm). If yours is a round then we might meet.
Good Luck for Tuesday.

 

[OkieGirl]

hi @OkieGirl
Stick with it till Tuesday, you will be fine. I am L&D on Tuesday too(3pm). If yours is a round then we might meet.
Good Luck for Tuesday.

My appointment is at 11:30. It always seems I end up missing one of you guys by mere hours either way!

I'm sticking it out until Tuesday. It's shocking how quickly you can go back to the mindset of not being able to get by on just the milk though and several times through the day I've caught myself thinking that and reminding myself that I can do it and have been doing it for the past seven-ish weeks.

 

[OkieGirl]

I am sure you will be fine on Tuesday and I wish you lots of luck xx

Thanks Maria!

 

[OkieGirl]

I'm just back from my appointment at L&D and everything went fantastic. I've hit my target spot on (Target: -20lbs/ Total lost: -21lbs) and now have been put on the re-feed diet for the next four weeks and then it's back again. What I was super pleased about though was finding out that my time on Tier 3 started back in November which means, if I do what I should, my next appointment will be my last Tier 3 appointment. Any L&Ders able to give me a rough idea how long the wait is between going from Tier 3 and the first Tier 4 appointment?

 

[Ian2Big]

Hi,
Great news meeting your target. My first tier 4 appointment (MDT group meeting) was approx 7 weeks after my last tier 3 appointment.

 

[Maria61]

I'm just back from my appointment at L&D and everything went fantastic. I've hit my target spot on (Target: -20lbs/ Total lost: -21lbs) and now have been put on the re-feed diet for the next four weeks and then it's back again. What I was super pleased about though was finding out that my time on Tier 3 started back in November which means, if I do what I should, my next appointment will be my last Tier 3 appointment. Any L&Ders able to give me a rough idea how long the wait is between going from Tier 3 and the first Tier 4 appointment?

Well done knew you could do this xx

 

[Bling Babe]

Great news Okie, I’ll have to look back at my appointments and let you know but you are definitely well on your way, you’ve done so well xxx

 

[Lottiewishes]

You are doing great hun xxx

 

[OkieGirl]

So, I've been on the re-feed diet one week now and I managed to stay the same, which I'm fine with.

Going back on food hasn't been as great as I had originally thought. Every time I have a meal, I feel constantly worried that I'm going to get it wrong and end up backtracking. I was told to not necessarily focus on calories but on portion sizes, which I'm trying, but it's left me feeling incredibly unsettled. Hopefully as the weeks pass I'll start to feel more certain about what I'm doing.

On the plus side of things, I had quite a few people tell me yesterday that the dress I wore to church yesterday looked like it was falling off me. Even my usually oblivious husband said the same. Now, while I think that some of them were exaggerating, I could tell a difference myself, which was nice. I've also noticed that my energy levels seem to be picking up some. For a long time, it's been my habit to come home from work, sit my butt in a chair and do sod all simply because I just didn't feel like doing anything else. The past few days, I've ended up finding bits and pieces to do around the house once I'm done with work. It's also getting easier to get in and out of the car and I even moved my seat forward just a bit.

I've been watching a series on Netflix called Addicted to Food. It follows eight people who are going through treatment for eating disorders at a place in Texas called Shades of Hope. At the clinic they have a 42 day in patient programme and the interesting thing is that they mix anorexics, bulimics and compulsive over-eaters all up together as the believe that at the heart of it, it's essentially the same disease, it's just that it manifests and plays out differently in different people. Apart from having the typical over-dramatic feel that these types of American shows have, I found it quite interesting but also found it a bit uncomfortable to watch at times when it's hit too close to home.

Anyway... that's my update for the week. I'll keep on keeping on and try not to let myself sweat the small stuff.

 

[Ian2Big]

Hi @OkieGirl , I had the same issues as you coming off the milk diet. Use those positive things that you and others have noticed to help you through the small stuff. Keep focused and well done.