BandedHuns Mad Fat Diary

[BandedHun]

Tonight's dinner was all eaten 20/20/20 stuck too. Think my fork portions are all that need adjusting.... ESP when I have the fill. Gosh I make it see like I'm having massive mouthfuls but I'm not they are not tiny tho... But I chew chew chew ...

Works tiring been ticking over till now . And now in stick for things to keep my mind occupied so I might read my book. I wrote a long entry on the tube about the book and it didn't save.... Gutted and it's never the same when you type a post first time and try to rewrite it and it's never the same impact ... Bloody network signal on the tubes .

So I'd lost the puffy ness I was feeling and no longer felt bloated.

I'm managing to eat just three meals which is great . I feel hungry sometimes but I try and eat at the set times to get the best out of the long shifts and travel.

The dinner in case you are wondering is 150g chicken breast 230kcal and roasted vegs 1 cup full -93kcal

I've got watermelon and yoghurt later totalling 200kcal

Before work at 6:30pm
I has 40g of shreddies again -another 200kcals ... I know it's not enough cals but I has been over eating before so it's good to bring the calories down a bit. But I'm going to try and so cheat days too, a day a week I have a peak in calories just to keep the metabolism working....

So all is good for me food wise and with my band. Home life is hard and stressful and I'm unhappy but I don't know what to expect anymore ....

Other than that - lots of walking this morning and then again on way to work so did 5 miles in total if you include the walk to and from the station to the base and back .... 500kcals burnt in total on walking alone .

Can't wAit to get into my running again xxxx

 

[BandedHun]

So had my brekkie on the train coming back and OH had text me in the night asking to bring him a sausage breakfast bagel home this morning in return for picking me up at the station ... Guess what... I only got one bagel and it's for him! I resisted temptation. The book is working and I'm working my band, I might have a cheeky weigh today as it's been a couple of weeks. Just worried it might not say what I'd like it to say, but mentally we are getting progress.

I moved over to these daine yoghurt a as they are high in protein and just had peach this morning... Yum! Very nice with 3 slices of watermelon. Should see me thru till I wake up time which I'm hoping I'd after 3pm today as I'm beat, I TRUELY am.

Should find out about the house today for tomorrow or might even be ready today? Who knows!!!! I will update after some well earned rest!

Have a good day my beauty's :-D

 

[Crystalrainbow]

Morning hunni ugh i so get ya on the network rubbish......... i typed u a long message last night, hit send and guess what NO CONNECTION i was so mad i shut the lid down and went to bed LOL and your so right its never the same second time around............ and TBH i can even remember what i was saying LOL !!!
yes i know i was saying how far you'd come..... from a scared, undecided pre opper to becoming a beautiful butterfly, spreading your wings ...... learning to live, cope with and deal with life after the band...... you are traveling the right path hunni learning and adjusting your mindset..... working with your band rather than against it ......... making it your friend for me this is key to making this work for us...... its no miracle cure lets be honest, so now we just need to make it earn its keep I am enjoying watching you growing hunni you so inspire me too................ wd on the intake and the hard work your putting in IT WILL pay off have u tried a banana on breakfast, makes it much more filling + my evening meal i have 50g boiled potato for a little bit of an energy boost ooooh some carbs lol gl with the weigh in hunni x x x x gt plenty of sleeps and wake refreshed and renewed...............better equipped to face the day, and the big move hugs x x xx

 

[Nikola]

Sounds like another great day Hun x

 

[MrsDuck]

Oooooh be interesting to see if you've lost anything tonight, you seem to be really working it at the mo so fingers crossed for you.

Good luck with the house move too, everything always comes at once doesn't it. Think new home, new start.

Hows the book? If it's any good I might get a copy x

 

[ThinnerJemima]

Well done for not picking up anything for yourself with the OH's bagel. That is a real achievement. The bank cards at home is something I've done on a regular basis too, it's a good tactic . And planning and preparation is the key, well done on that too, keep it up

 

[BandedHun]

EXHAUSTED.COM

Lost 2lb in three days and that's without knowing how much I'd put on in my non thinking chocolate munching fast food indulging phase... However, this goes to show that working "with" the band works. I have had hunger pains ESP when I get into work but I hold off till 1am to eat my dinner.

Pictures show today's food.

The book is really helping. It's totally detaching in a simplistic way the emotional and therapeutic side to recovery and how it makes it all seem as though it too tough to manage. Recovering from binge eating/bulimia. It all sounds so simple. It talks about two levels of brain and urges that over take. It's really compelling. I've read half already. Definitely a read for ANYONE who has tried CBT, therapy and everything in between, I got a feeling this thought process might help more ESP with the band. Conquering the old me with mind and body aye... But yes I recommend the book. Defo!!!

I'll update later when I'm at work ....

 

[leedsburr]

Hey Hun,

Your eating brilliantly now I'm on liquids again booo but it's going to be worth it....

 

[Crystalrainbow]

Fantastic Hunni your food looks yummy yummy but im loving the hunniepuss bag love it x x x x

 

[louloumoo]

You are eating brilliantly.... But..... You will only be able to manage half of that once you've had your fills..! Yay... To the band..

 

[BandedHun]

Thanks guys and dolls....


Ahhh my bag is a Claireabella one ... I use it for my iPad lunch and book... Lol

 

[Crystalrainbow]

Thanks guys and dolls....


Ahhh my bag is a Claireabella one ... I use it for my iPad lunch and book... Lol

LOL Hunni Claireabella means nothing to me LOL being a country bumpkin right down ere in Cornwall ............. skateboards and dolly shoes are only just coming into fashion ere LOL
However i typed it in to ebay i'm a right old girly girl and I WANT ONE x x x

 

[BandedHun]

Type it on line toxicfox.co.uk and loo at the personalised producer they do , the bags are hand designed you chose yourself ( or in my case... My ideal me!!) lol and bobs your uncle.... ( or a bloke on the TV from the 80s)

 

[Crystalrainbow]

Thanks Hun am looking now x x x

 

[BandedHun]

Just sitting here at the station reflecting on what I've just achieved. I have had the head munchies all night, it's been busy so wasn't able to read my book or watch any shows to take my mind off food. Once I get the urge for food I battle it until I fall asleep and on nights week, it's tends to be a 20 hour battle every day.

I wanted to ( being Friday and the start of rest days) go and have a McDonald's bagel... I walked straight past. Acknowledged the thought. Then thought to myself that's the habit wanting it. Not the real me who is enjoying seeing the numbers go down and the less bloated feelings.

Urge to binge 0 hunnie 1

On another note I was thinking for the last 5 weeks I've not had chewing him ... ( phewwww we) and also any fizzy diet soda! Yaye! What an achievement!!!! Didn't think I'd cope! ;-)

 

[WeightlossDreamer]

Well done Hun your doing amazing! The food all looks great! Seems the book is really helping with your mindset too and that's showing in the scales x x x

 

[Crystalrainbow]

OMG hunni thats YOU A HUGE 1 BINGE A BIG FAT 0 WTG

I'm loving this positive and mindful thinking just take that attitude one day at a time, an hour at at time and you will win thru big style
Your achievements are on a massive scale just keep them firmly in focus the will help to keep you there in that wonderful space...... thats control !! and don't it feel good to have CONTROL
Maybe writing down your achievements, no matter how small they sound............. keep it in a visible place so you can see it on a daily basis
x x x x catch ya later's get some kip wd on walking past that Mc D's thats bloody wicked .......

 

[leedsburr]

Those bags are cool! My sister in law got herself and my niece one... I asked of there was one with a hunky guy on it but got told to stop being naughty.... Bag envy gets me no where!

 

[leedsburr]

Oh the McDonald's thing, I am so relating to that at the moment... The day before I had my adjustment I was tempted, I even walked in... But the smell of grease almost made me gag and I walked out again....

Funny how I know think... And my some of my friends are a bit tired of me now lecturing them on healthy eating (which I'm not, I'm just looking out for them) having spent the weekend with them all last weekend 15 guys in one house, I cooked all weekend and it was all healthy nutritious stuff and the all loved it... Not a takeaway or rubbish in sight....

 

[WeightlossDreamer]

Brilliant Leeds! I need someone to come n cook for me!