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BandedHuns Mad Fat Diary

Thanks everyone.

Kirsty that's bloody hilarious!!!!
 
Thanks everyone.

Kirsty that's bloody hilarious!!!!
 
We went for a nice walk and some fresh air yesterday. Just what I needed but today I'm feeling rubbish. I'm feeling so tired and just like I need s good sleep. Daves woke me up and OH when he got in at 4am and haven't slept since! ?
 

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Hey babe. Hope your ok xx


Oh thanks Kirsty I'm good. If I'm honest I'm a little worried about my weight in 8st 12 which means I'm underweight with a BMI of 17.9 ? but then the last 8 days I am going thru grief so I am not very hungry, I'm busy walking and up and sitting stuff for funeral etc. So I know this is not "normal" times so I'm hoping I can put on 2lb odd in the next couple of weeks when things settle. I'm doing ok. One day at a time. Got Dave to keep me company and help relax me. My therapy on Tuesday's is helping me so much. It's certainly taken my binge thoughts away. Which is great. Group therapy is scary but it's so very empowering once you start. Band still 6ml in 10ml band. Restriction is heavy as always so I fill up easily and eat little and often... When my hearts not broken ... Other than that no real update....

Little picture of Dave and I having cuddles tonight
 

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Sorry the other one was blurry :-0
 

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Yep. 20 weeks and still growing.

Funeral is this Thursday. I just want it done, I feel like it's all too much st the moment, I'm going from not eating to binging . Crazy. Weights still low I can't get it back up, ggrrrrrr, nothing fits either. I've had to get uniform from scrapping out if an old locker room as my old bosses won't authorise any new stuff even though I'm a size 6 from a 20 ... They are doing nothing to support me. At all. Only drives me in my angst against them. Just highlights it all.
Still I'm getting better everyday. Slowly ...

Here's Dave this morning.... :) light bit of reading
 

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Sending hugs sweetheart x

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Oh my god I've lost 7st 3lbs that's 102lbs in total....

I'll try do before and after pictures and upload tomorrow

I'm in shock 100lb that's more than I ever ever ever thought off! What the hell.... I'm shocked :-o
 
So granddads funeral was ... Well... Amazing. He couldn't have asked for more.

As a military historian painter and adviser who had persons contact him all over the world contacted him , the crematorium was packed. People had to stand.

He were in uniform and lead the coffin from his home along with a piper , RAF officers out to the end of the street. We then went in the beautiful cars to the crem and re walked grandad to his final place , along with RAF cadets and a full service police dog, the piper, and officer . It was amazing.

I held it together. I stayed strong. Listened to the minister who spoke so sincerely. My dads speech cut the knife in my heart, hearing him say he loved him as he was the son he didn't have ( having had three daughters- granddad that is) and then he was his real dad, the only dad he knew. I cried, I didn't sob but the tears dropped.

The final inspection ( police ) was read ( if you ever get to read it , it was lovely. Then the minister gave his last speech to comital and this was sad, the words, the fact he had met his peace. His body was no longer here but his spirit remained, was so true. It was lovely.

So all in all it was a beautiful day.
 

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Leaving his home ?
 

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