Good morning all. I decided to add the new post opper badge to my profile - I saw it on a post from Kat and thought it looked really nice.
Well I had a sleepless night after my microwave fire and then blow up with Mr TB. I still cannot talk to him so I am going to leave it a day or even until the weekend and then we are going to have a serious talk about things
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It is 20 weeks today since I had my op. I am still in amazement how much difference it has made to me. My blood pressure is controlled with less medication which was the only reason why I was advised to go the route of surgery. My mobility and energy levels are better - although work is threatening all of that now
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More and more I realise that losing weight irrespective of surgery type or even without surgery, is about getting things straight in your head. I know I still have issues around food and always will. For me I have been trying to turn that into a positive rather than a negative. Actually cooking as opposed to using convenience foods or takeaways has been the biggest revelation for me. It is making me actually examine what is going into my body and what good it is going to do. I am sure further down the line that I am going to give in and have something naughty but nice - but I do not want to have to feel any guilt about food. Food is fuel first and foremost. It can also be a pleasure, a social activity etc. What I am trying to say is that I am trying to develop a more healthy attitude to food in the hope that it will help on what is going to be a long journey.
And talking of time, I want to feel more relaxed about how long it is going to take to get where I want to be. I still have my family asking me how much I have lost and I keep repeating I do not know and do not care - this is about my health first and foremost and not a race! I have lost weight because my clothes feel better. I saw a post from Julie (phatmomma) about being able to wear jewellery her children and family had bought her that she had not been able to wear because the chains were too small. I can so relate to that. Jewellery is my passion and I have loads that I have not been able to wear for years. At the weekend I am going to get out my jewellery box that has my most expensive pieces and I may just wear some of them to work which will be lovely - as long as I do not lose any! It is little things like that which motivates and keeps you going, even through the rough patches.
I better get logged on and start work. I am working from home today which is a blessing. I hope I can log off at a reasonable hour and do a bit of exercise on the wii.
Sorry for this long post - just felt the need to share
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Have a blessed day everyone.
tranquil x