Aww TB this band malarky is a right ole struggle some days I completely feel your pain. My last fill has been the one that's given me the biggest shift in my eating habits, and I haven't had a week go by where I haven't been sick.
Most of my issues are in fact my speed of eating, which still after all this time is a problem. I can tolerate chicken if I chew and chew and chew it, I struggle more with fish and had to stop having it for a few months (I love fish and had it in some form 6 out of 7 days a week approx) only just now 2 months after my last fill can I start to tolerate it and in very small doses.
There are days when even sloppy potatoe wont go down and then others when I can eat anything!!
It's very confusing so I've learned to just take it one day at a time now instead of trying to make sense of it.
I've been having whatever I've wanted these last few weeks, not really had my head in it at all. Bizarrely I have stayed the same weight wise......go figure!!
My head hasn't been in it at all, and if I'm being honest I don't feel like it's shifted into a more positive frame of mind either so I'm going with the flow for now. Consciously watching my fat levels.
The only positive I can glean from all this is if there was no band I would have put on easily a stone as I have been restricted in the quantity of food I've been able to consume, so it's definately working and stopping me from completely pigging out. My brain has wanted to though.
I'm now on holiday from work for two weeks, and aiming to kick back and rest lots, on the flip side also get out on my bike and get back into the cycling every day if possible. I was exhausted and it was showing in my choices and attitude to exercise last week.
Here's hoping a couple of weeks of r&r will pick me back up again in time for the madness of work during our busiest time of the year.
I'm off to see the solicitor this week regarding the mess that is maintenance. I worked it out the other day that his wages have gone down by 1/11th since we divorced. Yet he wants to reduce my maintenance by 1/4?!?! This is something else which has got me down. My life never seems to slow down with regards to the drama!! I wonder sometimes if I insight it or if it just follows me wherever I go. Still I should get some form of advice as to what to do this week.
WFTC is now all sorted
so pleased about that.
Got loads on today again, shopping, a cycle, gardening, brother is visiting, going to take the pace steady though I'm determined to enjoy this break and not kill myself getting everything done in the first few days.
Sorry I've ramble on so much.
Have a wonderful day everyone xxxx
