Thanks for all your best wishes Guys.Went to a+e tuesday evening and was admitted,on iv antibiotics for 3 days.Cos I am allergic to penicillin I have to have clorythamyicin(spelling?)Its like acid going up your veins.Had huge veins sticking out from my arms,hot red patches and my arms go totally sore.Anyhoo home now with oral antibiotics of same stuff plus eye drops.Must see opthmologist on Monday to make sure my eye is ok cos it is very dangerous around the eye,can affect your sight or even blind you!
After seeing one particular lady in the next bed to me,I want to say the problems we have are nothing compared to her life.She looked after her husband when he fell and broke his back,for 30years.He got cancer and died,her son died of pnumonia one week later 35 years old.She stopped eating and started to drink heavily,this resulted in her having a bloodclot on her brain.She was in intensive care for 3 months and is now on a normal ward.She is 60 but looks 90.her family have put up pics of her 4 years ago,blond hi-lighted hair stylish clothes happy and smiling.She can barely communicate now but I know she wouldnt want to live like that,I felt she wanted so much to be with her husband and son.It was so frustrating for her cos they put these boxing gloves on her to prevent her pulling out her feeding tube,she would spend hours getting them off to only scratch her nose when someone would notice and put them back on!I could of cried for her.I spoke to her quite a bit and she beckoned me over turned on her side and gave me a hug and stroked my face as if to say thanks for spending some time talking about everyday things and her hubby and son.Her visitors never mentioned them for fear of upsetting her.I asked would she like to see their photos and she smiled when she saw their faces.Sorry to go on but she has left a mark on me I cant explain.I am not religous but if there is a god I hope he takes her to be with her family,where I feel she wants to be...