Lucy - sorry that you have had such disgusting treatment from your provider (not).
As they are under obligation to fulfill the contract that you had with them; and they have backed out on it for dubious reasons, then you really need to get some help! Have you looked online to find out if there is a forum for the company that you dealt with ( see if there have been any other complaints about them; and if so check how others have dealt with it! This will give you ammunition when you need to get some legal advice through CB etc;
Although you have had your first band fill now, this will be the time to put in place the building blocks to losing weight.
As you should be on liquids at the moment.....go back to the beginning and think about how you coped with the milk diet. If you are feeling hungry are you getting enough liquids? You should be attempting to drink up to 2 litres or so daily. How is your water consumption? Try to up your intake by an extra glass a day....little steps to start with. Think why you originally wanted this surgery and how that, although you needed it.....you also needed to do your bit to make it work!
Don`t panic and stress - to get back on track you need to give yourself a good talking to, and tell yourself that the surgery wont work without your strong mind to push it forward and get the results you want.
Have you started any excercise yet? Yet again little steps and a little more each week will make great improvements for you.
Decide what you like to do, whether swimming, walking, cycling, gym etc; or any combination of these will make a brilliant difference to your weight loss. To begin with you wont feel like doing a lot but gradually as your weight moves off, you will feel more energised ( which also brings in the good endorphins that help you feel able to do anything.)
On this website if you look under the green banner above you will find hundreds of recipes and ways of dealing with every stage of eating, when you have had fills etc; have a dig around and you will be amazed at what you find.
We are all here to give (((hugs))) and support you; so don`t be despondent and fight the fight!
As I said little steps daily, then weekly and you will see progress!
Take care hun x
Love Kat x